Well said Scaredy Cat. It's ultimately your decision ylime as to what you're comfortable doing. Many people here (myself included) were at one point adamantly opposed to medication, but eventually chose to give it a try. One of the things that helped ease my mind the most was having the right doctor... one who will listen, who won't push you to take more than you're comfortable with, who addresses your specific concerns, asks your opinion, and works
with you as opposed to simply saying, "here- take this".
I wish you peace and am happy to see that you're considering the alternatives, learning about
your options, and respecting yourself enough to do something about
this.