SO ANGRY!!!

Im pregnant, so I know its hormones, but I NEED to control this, its consuming me. I get SOOO angry that I cant think about anything else, I shake from it, my adrenaline goes crazy, I cant sleep well, and I want to be so mean. Im wonderful to my family, but when a stranger pisses me off I almost wish I could have a face to face encounter so I can cuss them out and finally let all this anger out.  People doing illegal things in traffic drive me crazy and I might even do something reckless in return and I have an infant in the car, and someone put a note in my mailbox about parking too far back in my own driveway!  its a GIANT truck! its going to take up the whole driveway! and they threatened getting me a ticket if I dont comply, it wasnt even from the homeowners assoc. just from a regular person that wanted to remain anonymous.  I cant stop thinking about this! how can I calm myself down and just get over it?

hi Brandi-- nice to meet you...

Im not pregnant (thank god after 6 kids) but I tell myself before I get into a situation, like driving, that there are all kinds of people in the world, and many of them are not going to act as I would have them act. I run into adults all the time who act like two year olds. Like in the grocery line. I have people over talk me when im having conversations. just plain rude. But ive learned to change my way of thinking. I dont get mad at them anymore because thats not going to change their behavior. Oh sure, I could yell and scream at them in the grocery line, give them the middle finger in traffic, but is that going to teach them a lesson? no. is it going to get them to say "oh im sorry, i wont do that next time." no.... so I change the way I behave. I take a deep breath, and smile at them.

That lady in the grocery line who wont stop screaming on her cell phone? that guy who just cut me off? ah... they're having a bad day. we all have them. maybe theyre in a rush to get home to a sick relative. Maybe their house is on fire. who knows. maybe thats not even the case. But all I know is im better than that.

Sure, i lose my temper on occasions, im not perfect, and maybe those are the occasions when im the A-hole that cuts you off. But I honestly try to behave myself and give others the benefit of the doubt. One day I may need it myself.

with the new year just around the corner, I think i need to relax a little more, forgive a little more and worry and be angry a little less, after all we're only hurting ourselves.