i didn't wanna let my parents know, if possible, that i;m going for therapy for my a/p and depression issues. just started 1st appt last week.
today had some down moments at home that almost sparked panic and gave me anxiety.... felt out of sorts. went out a while at nite and called mom..while talking to her, the topic was abt how my day was today etc...and somehow ended up talking abt me seeing therapist for depression...i must have been yakking a lot(unlike of me to do that when i call mom) mom listened patiently, shared some advises..and after a while, she said it was getting late, put down the phone and told me get someting to eat for dinner and get some rest (it was abt 10.30pm then)...i sort of feel better after calling mom as i felt not so alone..
but when i got home, the thot that my mom knew now abt my depression and therapy, made me felt a little depressed...then it started again...the anxiety...and panicky...light headedness... took my meds...and just sat on the couch trying to clear my mind and calm down...my appetite was affected too, planned to cook for the husband but i didn't .husbnd made some sandwiches instead. that made me feel alittle lousy at first too but i told myself its ok, i;ll make up for it whne i'm feeling better...
but i'm just thinkin how do i overcome the depressed feeling that i told my mom abt my depression and therapy? i was afraid if i'd get anxiety attack again ...smoetimes these things might bother me now, but it might just be forgotten the next day when i'm preoccupied with other stuff..but i thot its best i have some positive thoughts to think of should i start feeling down or anxious abt it? its just the irrational "what ifs" again
sorry if this doesn't make much sense...at the moment a little drowsy from the meds and tired too..
good nite/good morning too all (depending on your time zone)