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Posted 3/9/2011 1:59 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Everyone,

My anxiety has been pretty manageable for a while, but last night was one of the worst in a long time! I woke up at 4:30 in the morning after a bad dream and felt like my nerves all over my body were on fire. My thoughts were spinning so out of control I could barely cope. I started ruminating about the past (which is what always happens when I'm anxious/depressed). I tried to fall back asleep but after about 30 minutes of being awake I started to feel so depressed I couldn't go back to sleep. I've been crying all morning and can't stop. What gives?

Could there by something really wrong with me? I'm hesitant to go to the doctor since they never find anything wrong and always throw pills at me that either don't work or make me feel worse.

I'm so frustrated. It feels like there's never a total reprieve, but that I should always be on alert for the next anxiety episode that's going to derail my life yet again.

Last night I was feeling good and decided to start looking for new jobs. My current job is decent, but it's not challenging me at all professionally and the pay is far too low to be sustainable for me over the long term. I was really excited because I found that I was feeling confident in applying for jobs above the professional level I'm at now with more responsibility and leadership opportunities. But then I wonder if I could even handle a job with more stress/responsibility when I'm having a bad day. It feels like I have this polarized life where sometimes I feel normal and happy and functional, and other times I feel like I should just settle for less because at least it's not stressful. Ugh!

Thanks for letting me vent. I'm sure the whole thing will pass.
Posted 3/9/2011 2:18 PM (GMT 0)
"I woke up at 4:30 in the morning after a bad dream and felt like my nerves all over my body were on fire. "-- If you are experiencing the same thing I am...then I know what you mean! Does it feel like your body is just....burning up inside, but yet you aren't sweaty or anything? Just like a fire/very warm sensation runs through your whole body?? I get that whenever I am experiencing high anxiety.
Posted 3/9/2011 2:21 PM (GMT 0)
Yes! That's exactly what it feels like. Then it's accompanied by these horrible feelings of dread, like I'm being swallowed up or something. Just ate some breakfast and am feeling a little better.

Sorry to hear you're dealing with something similar. It's so nice to have this forum and not feel so isolated!
Posted 3/9/2011 2:51 PM (GMT 0)
"Sorry to hear you're dealing with something similar. It's so nice to have this forum and not feel so isolated!"-- Ty! I am sorry that you are experiencing anxiety as well. It can be so overwhelming and just send your emotions into overload! I agree- this forum is GREAT! I have found the folks to be very kind, understanding, helpful and encouraging!

I have the same apprehensions as you about taking pills and going to the dr! I just finally said "Enough is enough! This is out of hand and I DO NOT have to live this way!" I got MAD and that over-road my anxiety enough to go and get checked out. My dr. prescribed Lexapro for GAD(Generalized Anxiety Disorder)....and I am going to be starting it soon. It is just my opinion, but I think you actually will rest easier and feel better about things if you would go see a dr and just talk with him/her and see what he/she has to say. :-)
Posted 3/9/2011 8:19 PM (GMT 0)
My problem is, I've tried so many medications and they all end up increasing my anxiety. I've left any doctors scratching their heads, lol. Xanax works in a crunch, and I should have taken one when I woke up this morning.

I'm feeling better now. The whole thing seems to have subsided. Thanks so much for helping out this morning.
Posted 3/9/2011 11:10 PM (GMT 0)
laurar
Hey there, I have been in your slippers too. The "what ifs?" sneak up on us. Should we take a chance and leave the job we are comfortable with or do we stay in our position ?

Try making a list of pros and cons and now days do be sure to add the cost of gas. Keep in mind many executive jobs are filled.

This will be your decision and if you have the means to take a new position only can decide you don't like it and do you have funding to fall back on ?

I know I just put out there a lot of food for thought.

Kindly,
Kitt
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