Some Thoughts on Coping

It's weird, I'll spend a few hours feeling just dandy, and then every so often that tightness in my chest, and difficulty breathing, will swoop back. What is the deal? I attended the first mass of the Easter Triduum tonight, and it steadied me. I think it's the familiar words and the rise and fall of voices and the incense and the familiar singing. It just lulls me and clears my mind, and I remembered that to control anxiety one must meditate and always monitor your thoughts from a safe distance. So I have to start doing that again instead of thinking I need pills or drink to do it.

The thing about monitoring your thoughts is to take 10 minutes a day and just notice what you're thinking without reacting to it. Just notice what's in your head. It makes everything analytical and takes away any feelings associated with what you're thinking.

yeah, it's weird. I wonder if it's hardwired into people, that a church means sanctuary. But sometimes I go there to just feel safe. I used to sit in the one in the village for nearly an hour at a time when I just didn't want to go home.

yeah, just going for walks helps me. keep going till you sweat!