Good way to start :)

First to sorry for my bad english, but probably that is not so important. I am 21 years and i went in the musical school from when i was 12. I keep asking why this is happening to me all the time. I was little anxious almoust 5 years, but didn't realy felt anxioust till 3 months ago, i was like in a dream. Obligations all the time, i wanted to become something very big, everything i try is very easy to me, so i expected to be on the top, probably its a talent but without a real work u cant do nothing. Problems began when a school changed a proffesor. As for skill and feeling the music there is no problem, but with opsessive compuls tougts i can concentrate and always trying to change myself. I was practising 4h every day but all that time i felt something is disturbing me. Social problems and common teenage problems were just normal to me especialy expectations to get i realy good looking and attractive girl, and more illusions for what life should looke like. All that and more cause every day introspection why cant do something i can. So i went to psychiatrist and psychologist. Very stressfull period of my life. They put me on half dose zolof for half a year (2009-2010) and i worked on myself and realy manage to feel better, it was so easy to deal with my problems. I am now drawing, making sculptures, singing etc...
My simptoms began when i got fewer, and virus expended to my sinuses so one morning i spit dark blood and it was i realy shock to me! I thought the worst. So my soft palate (but not forehead) began to hurt so as my upper neck (back neck) but inside (not like when you hit on something, not on skin or muscles), kind of constant tension, somethimes top of my head too. After 3 weeks i defeted virus but pain remained and sometimes at morning before i wake up i shaked like i have fewer. One night i got paniced i called urgency center they sad i am probably ok, and that i dont have serious simptoms but i can go to examination, couple night later i felt the same and in the morning i went to urgency center. High blood pressure and normal neurology test! Nothing serious, told me its probably nothing. I went to psychiatrist and she told me just to talk with my psychologist. And i went once but didnt felt any better.
I heard that symptoms i have can be from spine (moved atlas) and i went to chiropractor and he told me that my atlas is moved 3 mm and that my circulation is little slower to my brain and then he fixed it. I felt strange first days and little strange and he sad it is normal. Some doctors sad that you first feel worse but it became better. Night later when i went to bed and almoust asleep i saw my hands and felt like they are object and not me!!! I could move them but felt strange, i felt fear like never before, i toutgh it is the end. I woke and get up and after i drink a tee and 2 h of stayin awake i fall asleep. I called chiroptactor in the morning and he told me that it is all in my head, that he didnt do anithing that could cause sometnig like that and to go to him in 2 weeks, (here in my country he is wery respected doctor and chiropractor). I feel emotionaly bad all time (3 months now) and my left arm and leg felt detached for 3 days, tingling too. I read about anxiety and found a number of simptoms. And the most scarry is when i wake and feel like everything is pointless, life is pointless, i worked so hard i didnt felt better. But after 15-20 minutes i forget about it and go to school, when i come back home in the evenning it come back. My sinuses are very irritated (3monts now, too) and when i speek it it so unpleasant feeling.
2 days ago, 12 in the night i was on my way home and from bottom of my head to the top a felt tingling and i almoust blanked down, one second darknes but i manage to stay on my legs. Again i scared very bad, and all i saw on tv (tv series like House) and everithing i read on interner come to my mind. It was difficult to come home but then i felt little better. I went imeadiatly went to urgency clinic and neurologist examined me and sad i am fine but to find some good psychiatrist.
I dont know anyone with these problems and i feel so lonely so i write to this forum, hope this is not too long story, thank you.

Thank you, i will keep reading this forum, and to be honest, i dont trust people enough. But i trust people who speek like this "First of all, anxiety will always be part of our lives and we need to develop a certain level of tolerance to feeling anxious. It is not possible to live life without anxiety. As self-aware beings, who can think about many possible futures and we can always make up scenarios about which we can worry. Also, we need to take appropriate risks in our lives. If we could keep ourselves as safe as possible we would never leave our houses nor live a fulfilling life." :) Maybe i am not smart enough to understend others, some of my friends and my mother told me the same thing but in different way so i dont accept it. But when i read this it gives me hope. Thank you, i will find some good therapist! Only one question: Can people with anxiety reach a level of relaxing to live a normal life (to achieve goals they want, for example to be proffesional singer or anything you need always to learn and work on) and not always trying to fight with anxiety? I dont know enough people so i want to know are some of them managed to do this, to have good career?