my mother has told me numerious times that i am hard hearted because i dont forgive people quickly and i hold grudges
even when she is always the first person to bring up the past, now that doesnt seem to forgiving to me. my mother is the result of when im crying and was a result in my worse panic attacks. my mother have said a lot of horrible things to me and my sisters.
i forgive more when it comes to my family then people outside of the household, and the only reason why i have trust issues with people is what i was exposed to as a child and how i was raised. i dont think that im hard hearted for the simple fact im still living with my mother. my mother doesnt understand that i could be doing illegal things, and get paid the hood way and live on my own,
most kids my age love acting out in front of their parents, they love being disrespectful. the funny thing about is when i watch these reality shows i get angry at the way kids my age talk to their parents, especially when everything is giving to them. im not like those kids though, im not cutting my nose off by moving out the house to live at a friends house, thats just not happening. i just dont like people trying to say that i have an attitude, that im hard hearted, that im mean, or dramatic when i havent left. i mean im still here.
i feel nobody understands what im coming from.