Hi geek, You are definitely not alone with the google addiction, and you are not crazy if you are so am I and heaps of others on here. I'm sorry you can't afford to get some help, I don't really understand the medical system in America.
In Australia we have the public health system and if you need to see someone you just go and they see you for nothing....we also have private health system and you have to pay for that....anyway your not dying, your depressed and anxious just like me and heaps of others..
And if you feel like you need reassurance come on here and we will all help support you through the bad times ok...
And I'm proud of you for staying away from Dr Google, he's not our friend,
He is the enemy..ok I'm off now I will post any good tips from my therapist. I have my first session tommorrow morning..take care of yourself try some relaxation techniques you can find some good ones on mood gym or e couch online they are free....that's the only thing you are allowed to look up relaxation and of course talking to all of us....talk soon your friend shannon