Ive not posted in a while, been having my little ups and downs as per usual. But my UPS are getting more frequent and my downs less frequent and more controllable.
The realisation that dawned on me yesterday was that ive learned to laugh again. I cant tell you how amazing it feels to laugh and not have to force it. Comedy surely is an excellent medicine?! Ive been listening to podcasts by my fave comedians and it cracks me up, its become a little crutch for me now when i feel a bit down i focus on that and laughing seems to make the anxiety melt away, if i cant sleep through the night i will even listen to it rather than my meditation, atleast if im lying in bed laughing im not freaking out!
Ive been able to increase my exercise walking two miles home from work all uphill 3 or 4 days a week. I still have my attacks of panic, dizzyness, the usual array of freaky symptoms but i think my mental attitute has turned around..... well for today atleast (you know how these things come in waves!)
I wonder if anyone would like to post what makes them happy? - we must atleast have one good thing going for us? a goal.. something to focus on! Its sounds so ridiculously cheesy and if ide read this a couple of months ago i would have thought "OH WHAT A LOAD OF CRAP" - i find its easier to be negative and dismissive at the pit of my depressive state, but now i wont let myself think that way.
Be Happy x
Edit: I took out one word as it may be offensive to some of our members. Thank you in advance for your understanding.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 8/16/2011 9:33:14 AM (GMT-6)