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Posted 2/9/2012 6:41 PM (GMT 0)
Hi All

I have been thinking of some new ideas for threads some may work and others may not take off. Hopefully members will find them helpful.

This is a thread were you can just vent away about your anxiety and get things of your chest. One members vent may help an other member who can relate so not feel so alone.

That's see how it goes. Remember no need to reply to others posts the aim is to just have a thread were you can vent and then vent some more


Hibee
Posted 2/9/2012 6:59 PM (GMT 0)
Okay, I've got one...

I am sick of scheduling my life according to my anxiety!

For example... On Monday night my daughter came down with the stomach flu, and I honestly couldn't make any firm plans for the rest of this week!

I was so 'sure' in my mind that I would succumb to it, I wasn't even living in the present, or thinking of the future...I've gotten through it and did what needed to be done, but it was like this 'cloud of dread' was hovering over head and reminding me of the what-ifs.

I can't help but think what it would be like to just live life assuming that nothing bad is going to happen! What a concept!!!;p

S.C.
Posted 2/9/2012 7:14 PM (GMT 0)
Dear Anxiety

You are a real pain that I never seem to be able to get rid of you always sneak up on me and show yourself at the least appropriate time scaring me out of my wits and making me feel very uneasy. You make me feel so tired all the time as I constantly have to try and hide you so you wont embarrass me. Why cant you just leave me be so I can get some decent sleep at night and feel refreshed in the morning.

I have known you all my life but we are not friends in fact we are enemies doing battle in the mind. I wish that we had never met and that you would not be part of my life. For years I was confused and unsure of the world I found it difficult being with others and could not relate to my peers as you were taking over my life and making sure you were in charge.

I tried to ignore you for as long as I could and would avoid situations which meant I did not have friends and got labeled as shy. I was bullied by others because of this and became very self conscious and afraid of my surroundings. Eventually you became to much and made me ill.

I started to recognize you and built up the strength to challenge you and take control of my life. My friends CBT made me realise that you could be beaten and I was up for the challenge. I new it was going to be a long road but was very motivated to confront you and beat you back and get you out of my life. For the first time in my life i felt in control and it felt absolutely brilliant Lexapro helped me deal with the horrible symptoms you were throwing at me and CBT put me on the right track.

I started to feel good about myself and was working daily on making my life more manageable and no I did not miss you one bit. Things were good and I was enjoying life with out you but you would not leave me alone because you are spiteful like that and could not stand seeing me happy. You were sneaky and started to niggle away in the back of my mind challenging CBT but I was holding out it and rolling with you and staying in the moment.

Unfortunately I got ill from a virus and became physically unwell you saw this as your chance and piled on the stress and pressure and got hold of me again. Yet again you stayed with me and I lost my job because of you. It seems we are linked and are always going to be battling each other but I would like to make it 100% clear you will loose and I will fight you all the way.


Anxiety we will never see eye to eye but no I am on the up and taking one step at a time so it is you that needs to be worried not me.


Hibee
Posted 2/9/2012 8:56 PM (GMT 0)
It has been 6 years since I had a major meltdown which I now know was brought on by job related burn out.  However here I am 6 years(2,190 days ) later and I still have to battle with anxiety and with depression.

What made me think that just quitting work would remove the stressor and I would be on  top of the world ???????????  confused

It makes me feel angry to have been on so many meds that failed and to be told I am most likely medication resistant skull   skull   skull .

Now I am off to throw paper plates and I do feel better for just posting how I really feel here instead of pretending  that I accept that this is how I will always be - redface

Great idea Hibee - this could easily become the longest thread in the history of our A & P Forum.  Remember folks we are not looking for advice or answers but just to let off steam and then we can move on.

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(¸.•´ (¸.•` ¤ Kitt

 

Posted 2/10/2012 1:36 AM (GMT 0)
LMBO KITT! There you go again with the dang paper plates. I was just going to post something about my anxiety and panic, but you have me laughing so hard now that I can't remember what I was going to write. I'll post later when I stop laughing at you and your plates... I love you lady, you just make me smile.....

Oh! One more thing....Didn't SC tell you before that you need to get better plates to throw?!


((((HUGS)))) Fox
Posted 2/10/2012 4:38 AM (GMT 0)
I am sick of worrying about my health! I'm gonna be 19 in a week.. I am way too young to be worrying about things like heart attacks and blood clots, but my mind will not let it go!

I just want to get past anxiety and move on with my life.

Post Edited (sjennings45) : 2/10/2012 2:47:41 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 2/10/2012 11:38 AM (GMT 0)
I hate anxiety and stress ! And others just don't understand - friends you loose just being confined to a life scared out of your mind

Please let them invent a pill that gets rid of anxiety like a flu
Posted 2/10/2012 2:02 PM (GMT 0)
I'm tired of inventing problems for myself. I wish I could just go to the doctor like a normal person when something is wrong and then deal with it like a reasonable adult. I'm sick of getting stressed out every time my husband says "Let's work on the budget!" I wish my parents hadn't drilled this way of thinking into me since I was old enough to even comprehend language, even while thinking they were effectively hiding their anxiety from me. The hiding just made it scarier. I wish they'd just been honest about their fears and sought help for it. Then I'd have better tools for dealing with my own problems.

I'm sick of sleepless nights and fatigue. I'm sick of pain.
Posted 2/10/2012 3:14 PM (GMT 0)
I am sick of the discrimination and stigma that I face on a daily basis. I am able to hold down a job and I want to work but no one is willing to give me a chance to prove myself. This cycle I am stuck in just makes me depressed.

Hibee
Posted 2/10/2012 3:23 PM (GMT 0)
Anxiety,

You have taken away the most enjoyable years of my life, and for that I HATE you!!! You came storming into my life when I was a young teenager, and you haven't left since. You have controlled most of my life for the last 25 years. You have caused constant turmoil and grief for me and my loved ones. You've worn out your welcome in my life and I just wish you would GO AWAY!!!

I have never understood why you infected my life with your obsessive thoughts, and constant worry and panic about NOTHING at all! I always thought that I was a good person, I tried to be a good daughter, I never got into doing drugs or drinking, I tried to be a good mother and wife. Yet here you are. You've always made me think there was something I was missing, like I must have done something horrible in this life to have been plagued by such an UGLY illness.

I would love for you to just go back to the depths of HELL where you came from, and leave EVERYONE that you have affected alone! I want to have a normal life from here on out, not worrying about whether I have meds with me, or how close a hospital is  "just in case". 

GO AWAY! YOU ARE NO LONGER WELCOME IN MY LIFE, OR IN MY MIND!!! nono

Posted 2/10/2012 4:00 PM (GMT 0)
FOX,

I throw only the finest Dixie brand paper china. cool smhair

Giggles,

Kitt

 

Posted 2/10/2012 4:07 PM (GMT 0)
LOL Kitt! Why don't you use some of those old plastic Tupperware plates. I think it would be more enjoyable to fling them all over the room and not have to worry about breaking the plate. But then again, you could always break other things.....hmmmmm.

I'm starting to get the idea now. You can throw the plates and not worry about anything but getting your aggressions out. Yea! Good idea, next time I go to the store i'm gonna buy a pack of those Chinette plates, you know the ones that are really thick. LOL!!!

((hugs)) Fox
Posted 2/11/2012 3:46 AM (GMT 0)
I'm just going to bump this up to the top if you don't mind. I really enjoy reading this thread and feel like every day something new comes along to "vent" about.

BTW, this was a great idea Hibee! tongue

Posted 2/11/2012 9:58 AM (GMT 0)
Agreed it is good to have a thread were you can just come and vent away.

Hibee
Posted 2/11/2012 6:08 PM (GMT 0)
Saturdays are a nasty day of the week for me.  Every Saturday my hubby goes up north for the day and for some dang reason this does me in.  I plan ahead on staying in the moment and remembering that he will be back home by late afternoon but for some reason I break down and cry.............

The anxiety sky rockets along with all those negative feelings of wondering if there is anyone that truly needs me in their life anymore,  is this all I will ever be is an anxious, depressed, and whimpy person sitting here feeling frozen in place ? I feel so alone and sad.

I want one good friend in my life, one that I can laugh with, go places with and feel like I used to 6 years ago.  I hate my life and feeling like this. Why me Lord ?

I broke down and called my daughter - bad me !  She cannot handle her Moms mental health problems as she is busy and my calling her upsets her.  So I vow again to not bother people, they do not want me to come to them with my problems.  I cry alone.

I don't even feel like throwing paper plates today.

Kitt

Posted 2/11/2012 7:24 PM (GMT 0)
Awwww Kitt! :( If I lived near you, i'd definately go places with you and hang out and laugh. You have me cracking up alot of times just on the forum, I could just imagine..... Fox and Kitt playing Toss the paper plate to see who's lands farther. LOL! I'll get the Chinettes!

I really could have used an anxiety buddy myself today while I was at the grocery store earlier. I was getting really anxious, and feeling really "funky" because I forgot to take my xanax before we left, and i'm about a week before my "friend". So that always makes it worse for me. I almost had to go out to the car and let hubby finish the shopping. But I MADE myself stay and finish. Even though my fibro is acting up pretty much today too, pain in my back and knees, it was very hard to walk around the store without holding onto the shopping cart for support.

You should be able to call your daughter, don't feel bad because you called her. How many times in her life have you been there for her, listened to her problems, and talked her through them, or comforted her when she needed it? I don't care what is going on with myself at the time, but if my mother calls me and is having a hard time, I ALWAYS listen and talk to her about it. She has done that for me since birth!

If you want, I will give you my phone number and you can call me! :) I'm always here for a friend in need.



BIG (((HUGS))) Fox

Post Edited (Fox7) : 2/11/2012 2:39:22 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 2/11/2012 9:48 PM (GMT 0)
Anxiety,

You are a worthless piece of CRAP! I hate you with all of my being! Why can't you just leave me and my friends alone??? Why does it always have to be the good people that you so relentlesly attack? Why don't you go spew your hatred and mind games onto the people in this world that truly deserve it, like murderers, child molesters, rapists, etc...???

As of this moment, I am making a vow to take my life back!!! It is no longer your toy to just toss around and treat badly. I AM IN CONTROL!!! I am telling you to leave, once and for all, and NEVER come back!!!

You have destroyed so many good people's lives. You are EVIL, and I am a child of God, therefor I WILL win this battle because I have God standing behind me, and He will never let me fall!!! Be gone with your sorry self, and go bother the people who really deserve to be tortured!!!

All my hate.....FOX

Post Edited (Fox7) : 2/11/2012 4:19:19 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 2/11/2012 11:04 PM (GMT 0)
These threads made me shed tears and made me smile at the same time!

Fox and Kitt, you have not lost the funny bones!

The daily severe anxiety robbed me the joys of life! I am functioning like a robot these days, trying to function like a normal human being, pretending to be ok, but dying inside! I still function well being a mom, but that's just about it! I lost interests in many things that I enjoyed doing! I am a completely different person from 3months ago! Active, sociable, carefree, happy person! Now, I dont even recognize myself, dont remember the last time I laughed!

I hate anxiety!!!!!! Fox you are right that we good people don't deserve to be tortured like this! I am also a child of God, and my hope and trust is in Him to bring us through this battle in victory!

 

Posted 2/11/2012 11:24 PM (GMT 0)
"I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful... I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful... I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful..."
Bob Wiley
- What about Bob? 1991
Posted 2/12/2012 4:06 PM (GMT 0)
“Anxiety is the rust of life, destroying its brightness and weakening its power. A childlike and abiding trust in Providence is its best preventive and remedy.” ~ Tryon Edwards

I just bought myself a big can of Rust-Oleum  cool

Kitt

Post Edited (stkitt) : 2/12/2012 9:33:56 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 2/12/2012 4:14 PM (GMT 0)
Great quote Kitt...do you know the source?

S.C.
Posted 2/12/2012 4:29 PM (GMT 0)
Anxiety you are a real pain in the butt.



Hibee
Posted 2/12/2012 4:48 PM (GMT 0)
SC,

Ooops, I forgot and just posted it now. Author,  Tyron Edwards (1809–1894) was an American theologian.  We actually never met.  devil

Hugs,

Kitt

Posted 2/12/2012 6:01 PM (GMT 0)
LOL Kitt! I got some plates yesterday! Are you ready to throw them? I know I am! We can do a simultanious tossing of the plates day! I'm hoping to feel better afterwards. LOL!

Anxiety has been increased for the last few days, because of my "friend" coming within the next few days, but i'm pushing through and not letting it get to me. We WILL beat this monster! No extra xanax for me either, I refuse to take it because I feel that if I do, i'm letting it win.

I AM STRONGER THAN THIS!!!

Love and hugs, Fox
Posted 2/13/2012 5:02 PM (GMT 0)
Walmart is having a sale on paper plates, Foxy, so if I can get past the anxiety I am on my way to buy a years supply.  I do reuse them but I have to remember not to mix them in with the ones we use to eat from.  devil

Anxiety sucks - and I hate to admit it but I fear my latest med has pushed my anxiety up yet I hate to give up on the med.  So what to do -  I wish someone could just tell me what to do about you, Anxiety, as you are toxic and I am feeling weak right now so you are taking advantage of me.  Stop It !

Hugs to all,

Kitt

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