Well, I posted in another thread about
my dilema of taking a break from my job or not. Well, I finally talked to my cleaning job just now and I told her what was going on. I just felt it was the right thing to do and she appreciated that I told her instead of calling in sick all the time. She's letting me take some time off to see if I can get better, as I told her I didn't want to quit. She totally understood and feels really bad. I gave her the name of a friend who could fill in for me for a while if she needed.
Ok, so I've been feeling like this is what I needed so I can put all my focus on getting well. And I might feel relief later but right now I just feel sad. I don't like to let people down, esp. those who have been so good to me. My husband knows that I've been thinking of taking a break too even though he thinks I shouldn't. I might not bring it up, just don't want to feel guilty.
We have someone interested in buying our car so if we can sell it this week, then I won't have so much guilt about the money aspect of taking a break from work. Not that we'll be rich, it'll still be tight. Wish I could work from home. I love doing crafts, just not a professional at it. But I would love to make something unique and sell it.
I think this was the right decision. I can't even go 3 miles from home without panicking right now. Like my friend said, if you were having a baby, you would take some time off. I guess that's the great part of cleaning jobs-you develop a relationship with them and they are pretty flexible for the most part in times like these. That's why I chose this career path.
So I guess I have work to do now, on myself and my mind-can totally focus on getting well now.