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Posted 3/25/2012 6:43 AM (GMT 0)
Well I have had anxiety all my life and I actually can't allow myself to feel good. last month my anxiety was so bad I didnt sleep at all for a week...i thought i was going insane, I just feel so crap all the time and when i feel ok my mind quickly reminds me that im anxious. I supose you could say that I have been through alot lately ... and my partner is not at all supportive and actually makes me feel worse..but I am afraid to be alone and I am afraid of everything...and my mind is rather obsessed with death im just so scared of it ...im scared of everything I cant control. I dont go out and see friends because I know im gonna feel crap there i dont go any where without my car. its pathetic. my negative thinking is extremly bad...and repeats over and over. i always think about what i want in life but feel like im never gonna enjoy these things cause i feel so anxious and scared all the time. I feel anxious all the time not just sometimes and i have like all of the physical symptoms :( I hate it. But I am very grateful for alot of things aswell so im trying to think positive.

I do feel very alone in this

I just want to be me again.

if anyone has similar feelings i would really like to talk to you!!
Posted 3/25/2012 2:46 PM (GMT 0)
Hi bgurl and welcome!

I am sorry that your anxiety is at this level and that you are suffering at the moment.

You did hit on some key points that helps explain things a bit however...feelings of lack of control, and negative thinking. These are issues for me as well. I realized that a lot of my anxiety, specifically in regards to health, were rooted in control issues. Then of course there is negitivity, which leads to thought processes that are fearful and feed into anxiety...which leads to more negative thinking, creating a cycle.

The good news is that you recognize this, and there is help available! Therapy allowed me to recover from my panic attacks, and learn how to manage my anxiety really well.

You are on the right track when you say that you are gratedful for things, and trying to stay positive...CBT (therapy) teaches you to combat negative/fearful thoughts with positive ones, thus changing how you perceive things, creating a more positive, hopeful outlook on life.:)

I would recommend talking with your doctor about this if possible. He/she can recommend someone for you to see for therapy...and if you feel an immediate need for some relief, perhaps talk about medication.

You are going to be allright. You are taking steps to get help for yourself...including reaching out here.:) There is something healing in just talking with those who understand what you are going through...and we are always here to listen and support.

Talk to you soon,

Scaredy Cat
Posted 3/27/2012 4:53 AM (GMT 0)
You are definitely not alone. I usually have all those exact thoughts racing in times of real bad anxiety and especially during panic attacks. I do breathing exercises and try to remember the good things and accomplishments, no matter how small they may be. From a good joke or something else funny, or in my case thinking about playing open gym basketball once or twice a week.

The worst is when I start feeling like I am living on a mental island of some sorts. Where my thoughts are the only things I have and no one else can help me off of this island.
Posted 3/27/2012 8:42 AM (GMT 0)
yea.. it really does help to talk to people that have been through it...helps to make me remember that i am not crazy :P thanks alot :) i do have to get my wisdom tooth taken out tomorrow so i am very nervous but im sure ill be fine. I am getting better slowly...hopefully life will go easy on me for a bit. i defiantly want to start some therapy :) im already on citlopram for my depression and now sleeping pills so i dont really wanna take anxiety meds if i can help it but we see how i go :)
Posted 3/27/2012 1:59 PM (GMT 0)
bgurl,

I hope that your extractions go really well, and that you are not anxious! Going to the dentist is a challenge for me, so I am pulling for you.:)

I hope that your recovery is swift and easy...post when you feel up to it, and let us know how it went.

S.C.
Posted 3/27/2012 2:19 PM (GMT 0)
bgurl

Good Morning.  You are not crazy and you are not alone - I was dx 30 years ago and it has only been the past 6 years that have been a tougher battle for me.  One of the most common symptoms of anxiety is fear that you are going crazy. 

You are  an excessive worrier racked with tremendous amounts of stress, but you are not crazy by any stretch of the imagination.

When your mind starts to wander into the anxiety zone try self-talk.  Here is one you may want to use: "What I feel in my body when I am anxious are only normal feelings that are exaggerated.  They do not mean anything else is wrong or that something bad is going to happen"

I hope you keep on talking with us here in the forum as we know how you feel and we are here to support.

Kindly,

Kitt

Posted 3/27/2012 6:29 PM (GMT 0)
Hope your wisdom teeth extractions go well. Get some rest! Keep us updated on how you are doing.
Posted 3/28/2012 8:41 AM (GMT 0)
Your original post could have been written by me. I'm struggling right now with my anxiety and not sleeping/eating well and so much more. I was glad to read you post (as terrible as I feel for you) because I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. Thanks for posting.
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