Hello Queenie,
When change does occur, don't pretend it isn't painful. Yes,
change can bring new opportunities for personal growth, accomplishment, and
organizational success. But it also causes feelings of sadness, loss, and
anxiety about the future. These are normal human responses.
When organizational relationships change, or when our own
job responsibilities become altered, there is a normal reaction of sadness,
anxiety, and loss.
One of the worst things you can do when this happens is to
pretend everything is "just fine." Even if you agree intellectually
that the changes are necessary, emotionally you still may have some painful,
negative reactions to deal with. I have been in your shoes in my professional life as well as in my private life many times. I do understand the anxiety.
Even though you may be feeling stressed, angry, or scared
about your future, you still need to remain upbeat and positive in most things
you do. I am not saying you should "pretend" you are upbeat when you
are really feeling down. What I am saying is that if you force yourself to
accept the whole truth, you'll see both
the positive and negative aspects of any major change. This expanded
perspective alone will almost always help you feel more positive and upbeat,
without having to deny your feelings to the contrary.
Look for a way to get to the training by riding with someone
else. Perhaps if the training days are
all in a row you could spend your nights in the city where the training takes
place. That way you would only have to
travel one day to get to the training site and one day to ride back home. Any bus, train or other transportation you
could take?
Please know we understand how you feel and remember to
celebrate your accomplishments. You now
have a whole group of members here to support you. I extend to you a very warm welcome to a great forum and hope you will keep talking with us.
Kindly,
Kitt