Most of the time I'm doing well with my anxiety--got the heart issue all resolved...
But then there are mornings like this one. They don't happen that frequently, maybe every three weeks or so, but when they do it's agonizing... I'll wake up with a monster case of dizziness. My throat and jaw feel tight, my head aches, and I feel like my ears need to pop. It's not a new sensation, as I noticed some of this happening around this time last year, as well. I've had the echo in that time, as well as several general physician visits, and outside of the murmur, there hasn't been anything all that abnormal.
So why does this happen?? I've got a few theories... I know I have a long history of bruxism (grinding my teeth) when I sleep, not to mention migraines, and kyphosis that causes a whole lot of muscle tension in my upper back and shoulders. It makes sense, given that I have more evidence for that stuff, that it's probably related to something like that, but the paranoid part of me is always lingering back there, and sometimes not so quietly. The thing that says "What if it's your heart not doing a good enough job? What if your blood pressure is severely low? What if this, what if that, blah, blah, blah..."
It's frustrating. I don't want to be worried about it. I've come a long way to making myself better at dealing with my anxiety, but it seems like these moments of doubt (that always coincide with symptoms of some sort) never completely go away.