scared.!!

So I called my doctor on Friday about the abscess in my neck. He wasn't in and today I received a call. It was the receptionist and said he was recommending another antibiotic and a visit. This would be my 4 antibiotic in 3-4 months. So then minutes later they call back and I guess this nurse or assistant wanted to talk to me. I told her that it's been swollen and this morning it threw out a bit of puss and blood. And it's a bit less swollen. I then told her IM worried since it hasn't gone away and how it might not be normal and she's like it might be. Bam, I start thinking I have lymphoma again. I'm scared and ATM I am crying imagining the worst. Why hasn't it healed for so long. Maybe they is something else. Idk. To make things worst my mom is tired of hearing me complain about how I have that. I am scared.

Hi joavila92,

Sorry about what you're experiencing. I think you should visit the doctor to confirm what the abscess/lump is. Maybe you should get the necessary tests done before you convince yourself that you have lymphom. I know it must be very frightening for you but I think you should visit the doctor so they can take care of you. Maybe, you can try doing something to distract yourself so you wouldn't feel scared or panicky.

Hope you feel better. Please let us know how you're feeling and how your appointment goes on Wednesday and Friday.

Take Care

joavila,

Until you go for your appointment, try to put any thoughts of this out of your head. You can't control, change of make the situation any better through worrying about it...in fact, you can only make it worse for yourself.

It is what it is, and you will find out on Friday. I know that this advice seems simple and not helpful in any way...but that is just it, it is simply not something that you can fix right here an now. When your brain tries to go into panic mode about it, repeat to yourself "it is not time to worry about that now, I will find out what is happening on Friday."

This takes the burden of worry from you, and puts it on your doctor...where it should be.

Stay away from google searching and hang in there until Friday by staying distracted and consciously putting the worry on hold for now.

Let us know how it goes, and know that you are going to get it figured out soon.

Scaredy Cat

Hi joavila92,

How are you feeling? How did everything go?
I know that one of the symptoms of anxiety is vomiting. Maybe your doctor will be able to give say for sure what's causing it.

Hope you're okay.

Thanks.Lili, and anonymous. Well today I woke up with the same anxiety but as the day went by it got better. I went to a TV show taping so it distracted my mind abut. It is a struggle but today wasn't as bad as other days. I actually felt a bit normal again. My surgery is scheduled for Tuesday and as I ask abit nervous, I'm trying not to think about it. I know everyday is a struggle but hopefully I will keep having good days like today. How have u guys been thanks for the support