anxiety hit me hard

I'm afraid of colon cancer now. I'm 19 and last Friday/sat I had blood in stool. started like 2 years ago but never got checked I'm so stupid. Now that I have health anxiety I'm afraid of everything and every symptom has a impact in me. My family has no history of cancer yet but I am afraid of being the first. I can't even get checked till October because I am going to the surgeon and recently went to the gyno and both charged 40 dollars.. I can't afford to go to my regular doctor right now. The gyno said she didn't find any external hemorrhoids but I may have internal.but I have to see my regular doc. If I have had bleeding before maybe it's to late and it's too advance. these past days I'm afraid to use the restroom

That's exactly how it is...you get over one scare, just to run into another...that is why all of the doctor's appointment in the world won't help. You need to get at the heart of the problem...which is the anxiety.

Therapy is the best way to go about this. If that isn't an option, then getting serious about a self-help program is a must...otherwise the anxiety is going to continue to try to run your life!:(

If you need some ideas on how to get started/recommendations let me know.:)

S.C.

Here are a few books ideas for purchase...they are of various degrees of price, so you can choose...but it would be a good investment, and certainly less expensive than therapy. (the library is another option...I checked out every anxiety management book at mine!)

We also have CBT downloads and on-line therapy options in our Resources here.  It does take some effort and time, but again, well worth it!

http://www.amazon.com/Treating-Health-Anxiety-Cognitive-Behavioral-Approach/dp/1572309989

http://www.amazon.com/Overcoming-Health-Anxiety-David-Veale/dp/1845298241

http://books.google.com/books/about/Free_Yourself_from_Anxiety.html?id=KwWDNwAACAAJ

That should give you a starting point...I will post more as I think of/find them.:)

S.C.