Posted 9/1/2012 6:47 PM (GMT 0)
Hello I posted this yesterday !!
-OK I am back again taking 5 mg of Lexapro . I talked to my doctor I have an appointment, he told me to seek a therapy again , but ok i remember last time my therapy kind of caused me more OCD, I really don't know every time I went I used to over think about my OCD problems and I would check like check every thought, feeling or thing I did to check that my OCD could be cured or better. So I really don't know what should I do, my OCD is weird is pure O but I when I don't have panic attacks and I am better with anxiety I feel I can handle it. This second OCD , Panic attack anxiety breakdown first was done because I was under a lot of anxiety then after this my OCD came back. Plus another thing is I would like someone that truly helps here in the city I live there is not many options . Do I really need therapy again is it necessary to recover ?? Or my meds what can it be ?-
Today is a mess . Just right 2 weeks before having a trip I planned for a long time, and after having a lot of other problems like 2 family members dying and braking up with my fiance and then coming back , I had an anxiety brake down I felt panic one day so I took 20 mg of Lexapro because I thought it might not be helping plus the doctor had already suggested it to me so I decided to try it , I felt horrible so I went back to 10 mg after talking to the doctor and he also gave xanax it helped somehow.I went in to my trip even having panic attacks and everything , I was taking 10 mg but then I ran out of it and i went to 5 mg for 4 days then nothing for 2 days, even away from home I felt better. This is my 3 day back on 5 mg because I got my prescription again. I can say that in my trip and even while i was off lexapro i felt a little better, I still had panic and tons of anxiety. But today I feel bad and it is not like OCD bad . I always take my pill at night before I sleep. I woke up nauseous and in panic , with horrible heart palpitations, I had really vivid dreams and nightmares . I really feel I am anxious but I was less anxious when I was off the lexapro for 2 days. While on Lexapro right now i am shaking and I feel dizzy, nauseous and like sick , I don't feel anxious only I feel sick and so much panic I can't walk around a lot because I feel i might faint.
I have anxiety, but I feel maybe Lexapro since I been changing dose it might be not helping me as much as I want. If anyone has any experience with Lexapro please give your opinion , one thing I know about this pill is that every time I change the dose a tinny bit I feel like crap is horrible !! And I hate this feeling because honestly , I have so many things to do , and I would like to be working to my full potential I feel this is not ok and I should not just accept feeling like this !!I was feeling better now its just a mess !!
Thank you for your help I am just tired !! I want to be ok!!