Panic attacks the same time each night

Michael Jackson and Whitney Houston both took lorazapam which I take for anxiety. Although, i know its not what they died from, ever since WH died, I have a fear of not waking up so each night around 8 pm I get severe anxiety. i was taking 6 mg of lorazapam at night but luckily i'm down to 2. I found a few things that caused my triggers but sometimes I just done understand what brings it on.. I've learned to take my pill before it hits since I take it before bed anyway. Kinda like tricking the brain, but i eventually want to be off the medication and not have the anxiety attack. At least not each night. They are BAD!!!!

My husband is usually in bed before I get there so poor him, I have to wake him up to tickle my back, even if its for 10 seconds then I can fall fast asleep.

Any suggestions that don't involve drinking coffee or tea? or reading a book?

Hello. I did EMDR therapy and my husband and i have discussed weather or not I should go back. The reason is because we've recently we made a big move out of state which has caused me a great deal of stress and I've developed Pelvic Floor Dysfunction because of it. So, I really need to focus on not being stressed. however, if I go back to therapy, it will dredge up old feelings and fears and more stress so I'm not sure when I'll go back. Perhaps I'll wait a year and see if I can get my PFD under control first. :)