My anxiety is killing me

Sandkitten

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Joined : Sep 2012

Posts : 50

Posted 9/8/2012 12:17 AM (GMT 0)

I tried a new approach because i was tired of fighting with my husband every minute. The fights were getting bad enough that we were only screaming at each other. My new approach is to keep everything inside my head. While i realize that it is probably the worse thing i could do i don't feel like i have any choice. Everyone around me seems happier now that i am holding it inside. Everyone but me really. I feel like i am losing my mind but everyone else seems happier. I am still not included in the group activities unless i push my way in and then its all uncomfortable. My husband would rather spend time with anyone else than me, and it feels like i am pulling teeth just to get him to watch a movie with me. I am so lost, i don't go see the therapist until next week, ( soonest they could get me in) and the meds i have make me horribly ill. I have been drink chamomile tea but that doesn't seem to make anything better. Everyone else is happy that i am stopped being so dramatic but i am losing my sanity.

Lost in my own head
Krystal

Scaredy Cat

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Joined : Sep 2006

Posts : 28868

Posted 9/8/2012 3:15 AM (GMT 0)

Hi SK,

There is a fine line between keeping a lid on the over the top drama, and being able to express yourself to a comfortable extent.

It is hard for me to hear that you are just keeping it all inside to make everyone else happy.:( On the other hand, if you were letting everything out at an explosive level to everyone, all of the time, then...maybe things needed to be reined in a bit? I am not in your situation, so I don't know.

What I can say however, is that you need to find a way to be happy, while constructively letting your feelings out, and you need to feel validated and wanted in your relationship.

I am so glad that you are going to see a therapist. I think that this will give you some good idea of the direction that you need to go.

I hope that it is a positive experience for you, and that you learn a lot about yourself and what you can do to be happy in your situation.

Let us know how it goes and keep posting with us. We are here to listen and support!

Best wishes and lots of encouragement.:)

S.C.

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