So tired of this

Ugh I hate this I really do here's some background stuff on me...
i was always a pretty nervous girl from since i can remember but I was just nervous never super anxious or anything, I loved playing and was carefree for the most part. Wether it was climbing on rocks or touching frogs you name it I did it all. When I was 10 I got stung by a wasp on a roller coaster while visiting a funpark with my family and to my luck I didnt know i was allergic and got an allergic reaction and couldnt breathe. In the end I was ok but that offset me being nervous, everywhere I would go I would be looking for walk in clinic to make sure that if I ever needed one there was always one I remembered and I convinced myself I was constantly going into anaphylaxis. Then it wasn't that bad from like 13-16 until I got pregnant at an early age I convinced myself everyything was hospital worthy. Yet i managed to complete highschool and get a scholarship and early acceptance into university with my marks all while I was pregnant! I had high blood pressure while I was pregnant and obviously obsessed over that more when after I gave birth rather than when I was pregnant. I have the most wonderful husband and son I could ever had asked for and that keeps me sane everyday I swear. But ever since my aunt died at 45 last year of lupus Im scared crapless to get that as well. I just want to live my life i swear im going to a therapist soon. I wanna be better for my son and my husband who are more important than anything out there.Being this nervous is the worst thing ever I have never really talked about it, I hope everything get's better <3 stay strong everyone!

BME,
I am not sure if you have read many of the other threads but some of the words that you just wrote sound exactly like I wrote! :) Many people suffer from health anxiety and it is no fun. SC mentioned therapy above, I highly recommend it. I am currently going to CBT therapy and even though progress is slow it definitely teaches you some great coping methods to get through the hard times. I have dealt with anxiety since I was 12 and I'm now 24 and finally have had enough with it "taking over my life" and just decided to start seeking the help of a therapist 2 months or so ago. After reading how much it has helped others on here and having no where else to turn I gave it a try. Hopefully this is something you will be able to do. My two little boys and my husband are the world to me and I am not only doing this for myself but for them. I want to be the best mommy and wife I can be and this darn anxiety takes so much of my attention from them and turns it all to myself and my symptoms. Best of luck! :)