another one to add to the im not dying list

hey guys hope you are all well i hope i can lighten your spirits with my drama queen story!
so if any one has seen my posts will know i have costochondritis .. inflammation in my chest that takes really long to heal and although im normaly on average suffer a mild amount of discomfort daily it can flare up bad from time to time giving me stabbing pains in my chest tightness panic and sends my anxiety symptoms through the roof!!
so yesterday at work i was really sore i was saying to my college i think i had maybe twisted funny or lifted something at the weekend to aggravate the inflammation ... but as the day went on my pain got sharper and i became quite anxious ...then comes the palpitations ....so im bracing like i do when the palps come on a tense up they really are my most feared symptom... then comes the tightness like a rubber band round my ribs which although can be brought on by panic i also get this with costochondritis .... then i start feeling shortness of breath and total freak!! i have been told sob can be a costochondritis symptom but ive been lucky enough only to feel it mildly if im moving around alot .. but i genuinely couldn't take even half a deep breath because of the tightness ... so my superior comes down sends me home which i was upset about as i really didn't want this to cause me off work but she basically said she was kicking me out the door lol! ive only had 1sick day in 2 years so im trying not to beat myself up too bad.
so i get home and roll about my bed for 4 hours in pain/panic palpitations are out of contold i normaly only get pain of costochondritis on my left side but i now had stabbing on both sides of my chest
as soon as my boyfriend got in from work he threw me over his shoulder and took me to a&e i was shaking and crying going in the door my heart rate was 130(panic) my respiratory rate was worring the nurse got a doctor right away and ran an ecg......
so im burning up feel like am going to pass out my legs had to be held as i was shaking violently i was crying absalute convinced my heart was in trouble i had every single heart attack symptom.... so the ecg comes out im im like whats on it is it bad... the doctor who knew i can read ecgs being a medical receptions he turned it round to me and smiled... ecg didn't have a thing on it heart rate was 100 so still considered tacy but defo due to panic but what happened next was remarkable ...
so i slump into the bed relaxing for the first time in about 8 hours all my muscles were jelly as i had been so tense all day! i just giggled and like the switch of a light my full body was still the pulse monitor went from 105 to ninty about 2 mins my mum bf and doctor was amazed said it was like they had just swapped patients and my chest pain halfed straight away and palps vanished.
my doctor was brilliant! he explained to me he can defo tell by examining me i have bad costochondritis but ive became too comfortable with what im fimiliar with and with me getting different symptoms like sob and pain on both sides has sent me into a mother panic attack. it has also been snowing in sunny Scotland and he said the cold weather defiantly aggravates this condition which i wasn't aware of.
so my thought is now this i had been doing fine before this by the way but if yesterday i could of had an all day panic attack be at my very worse state in absalute agony and STILL run a clean ecg i really need to accept my heart is health and i am too. this condition is not going to effect my health and although painfull it is not damaging me in any way its just unfortunatly very hard to get rid of!
so i really just wrote this for me and to remind everyone... the though you really need to keep at the front of ur head is that we who are anxious are always going to imaging the worst possible scenario ever ... what is hard with panic is logic... i know its not impossible for bad things to happen but its even more possible for everything to be absalutely fine!
i am strangely thankfull for my drama filled day i am reassured of my health and my gran has done all my housework while i was at a&e bonus! haha

ok one thing.... the doctor didnt test my bloods for rhythm problem or anything ... he did ask and i told him my bloods were tested in December for electro imbalances ect and were fine... he said he had listened into my heart from several points chest back stomach arm.. and felt there was no reason to half to check ...dont get me wrong the doctor was brilliant and i dont think he was trying to Pam me off or anything but im sure im just being paranoid but i kind of wish he had checked you know ....

anyway its Easter this weekend and i plan on milking the invalid story just a bit longer and hoping my sister will bring me some of her eggs :)

jx