Need advise please

Hello i am a first time user , and been trying to deal on my own I felt so scared to admit I might have anxiety as I might be judge. I have two young children and feel as if I shouldn't be this way and have failed.
The first time I noticed it was when I had my first child I figured it was depression, but after time come to realize it might just be anxiety.
It comes out of no where. Emotional I feel lost and scared, and over come with a lot of fears. Physical my body feel like I'm on fire , I get sick , might have diarrhea.
Or sometimes I get very bad chest pain where I can't breath. I'm going through a rough separation right now. So I get it often.
I don't wanna take meds, and when I talk to family they don't completely understand.
I realized last night I need some advice as A very good person has come into my life , and I was so happy. Then this morning it hit me, and everytime I thought of them I got scared..
Please any advice why this is happing

Hi Sweetie!

Just wanted to tell you, that I can identify with a lot of what you are going through and I am so sorry it is so difficult for you. Anxiety developed for me after I had my son and got worse when I went through a divorce. It is very painful and can raise a lot of questions about yourself that maybe you weren't ready to answer. I hope it gets easier for you and once the dust has settled, hopefully you will feel much better. Staying positive and spending a lot of time with your children will help keep you focused on kicking your anxiety to the curb.

Mommy

Sweetie!

As a person with anxiety & panic disorder I'd like to commend you on making it through those rough times and days not knowing exactly what is going on. I am also sorry you are experiencing these feelings. I've been living with anxiety & panic my whole life, it feels weird, wonky, like I'm not totally myself some days, scared, nervous and constantly thinking and ruminating about this or that worry. I just thought I was a person who was very good at being able to avoid problems because my mind constantly ran. Turns out it's not the problem that I'm trying to solve in my head, it's the fact that I allow so much to run in and out of it and most of those thoughts are fearful, anxious, predicting, visualizing to myself what bad things could happen, etc.

I definitely give a strong second for the benefits of CBT. I am also seeing a therapist but due to where I am I can only see him every 3 weeks.

As SC says, go see your primary care doctor who can help you manage some of the physical symptoms. My first one was irritable bowel syndrome, I felt like my tummy was in knots and had constant diarrhea. You can get some help from your doctor to manage your symptoms but more importantly a referral to see a psychiatrist or a psychologist. I found that my therapist was very help the first session I had with him. My second session with him is tomorrow and I'm looking forward to it.

I don't want to take meds either. I scheduled an appt with my primary care doctor after the visit with the therapist tomorrow to discuss the possibilities of SSRIs and other medications. I'm not sure what will come of that disussion, I want to wait and see what my doctor recommends. So...decided just to try my best with the CBT and occassional Xanax and wait until tomorrow to see what doctor says. So, if there's anything to take away from my long email I'd say go speak with your doctor and get a referral for therapy. It is very very beneficial to have strong relationships with your doctors.

And also...welcome to the forum & your journey with anxiety. We are all here to support you as we are on this journey with you together! Please stay connected with us and let us know how you are feeling!