sleep and concentration issues

So, I've only been on the Celexa for around 5 days. It's still making me pretty sleepy, but I imagine (hope) that will get better in time. It's not helping much with the panic attacks (and honestly, I haven't done anything proactive yet, either), so while I was on vacation, I was just taking a nap when I started feeling breathless/dizzy/faint.

Fast forward to last night & today. I guess all of those naps caught up with me because I spent all of last night laying in bed awake, worrying about the other tests the doctor wants to do and wishing my insurance would cover them so I could get it overwith. Today, I'm exhausted and dragging and rather disoriented. I can't seem to get my work done... I've been trying to work since about 7:30 a.m. and I still have two files to finish and email before I can go to sleep. It's 12:30 a.m. here...

Sorry... just venting... it would help if I'd get off of here and finish my work! lol

I have noticed that since I have gotten, ahem, older (over 40) if my sleep patterns get off...it really affects me.

Joshua has given you some good advice already, so I will just say, give yourself a couple of days to get back into your normal routine, and you should be feeling fine again soon.;)

As far as the test worries...try my favorite mantra for when it is not going to do you any good, or make any gains to keep going over it in your mind. I repeat:

"It is not time to worry about that now."

Simple, but if you practice it, it works. There is likely nothing healthwise that you have to worry about anyway...and there is certainly nothing you can change by thinking about it constantly, so give this a try, and stay distracted.

I hope that you can get back into your 'groove' soon.:)

S.C.

Thank you guys so much for your encouragement!

You're right, obsessing about the tests won't get anything done. I wish my doctor wouldn't have mentioned cancer. Wish she just would have said, "your white blood cell count is abnormal and I want you to get this other test done when you can afford it." Of course, I probably would have googled high white blood cell count and I'm sure that I know what I would have found.
Regardless, obsessing won't help and it's going to be about 3 weeks before I can come up with the money for the tumor marker tests and if she still wants to do the biopsy after that, there's no telling how long it'll take to find the money. So... not accomplishing a thing by losing sleep over it.

I think my job is part of my problem. I know this will sound like anxiety talking, but in my job, if we miss a deadline by literally 1 minute, we can get written up. 30 minutes and you may as well pack your stuff. The last time I was in trouble, it was because I uploaded a file at 1 minute after deadline. I didn't get written up, just a big chewing out. So, when I have early morning deadlines, I'm too scared to go to bed until everything is done.

I spent some time looking for jobs this afternoon that I thought might be less stressful. I can afford a slight pay cut, but not much. I found two or three and wrote resumes/cover letters for them. Then, though, I started thinking about the cancer thing... my insurance isn't great but it's better than no insurance, so I'm scared to try to leave my job until I find out for sure that I'm okay. Circle back to beginning of wild thoughts/panic and hyperventilate again. lol!

Joshua - you're right. I need to put it out of my head - I can't solve it by stressing about it.

S.C. - I like the "it's not time to think about that now."

Larry - I hope you're right. I kinda think everything will be okay, too, when I'm thinking logically. Thank you for your prayers!

Thank all three of you so much for your encouragement and support! It's so nice to have this board to come to when I'm freaking out. Y'all are so supportive and actually understand. The only person in real life who understands is my husband and he's more likely to have a truly severe panic attack over this stuff than I am!

BeRock, I'm kinda hooked on your future, and health so I want to share a story about my oldest Daughter,
She had a checkup like you and had high white cell count and no red blood cells, I know everyone's mind
go's the same direction. I went with Her to all Her dr apts all of them, I never let her know but I was scared
too. they set her up for infusion with red cells and Iron ect., took 6 weeks to get Her values back to normal,
a bad scare but She and I are closer than ever. Nothing was wrong except maybe my DNA, I have always
been borderline anemic with high normal white count, so was my Father, and Mother, SO some of these
things while not normal by the book are normal for us. "the main thing is did you feel pretty good".
Something tells me you are just fine, You don't need to ask, Your always in my Prayers!
Larry ***