Doctor or no doctor?

I'm so frustrated with this disorder/these disorders today! I hate feeling like I can't even objectively analyze my own symptoms. I hate feeling like a big ole wimp.

I push through, I persevere, I solve problems. Not now, though, now I feel like a big ole weak mess!!! ugh.

I'm debating going to the doctor.

I feel so sick today. I woke up with my head feeling very, very heavy. I kept thinking of a sponge that's too wet, if that makes any sense. It felt like a hangover headache and I'm pretty sure I didn't get a hangover from bottled water. haha. Anyway, I think hangovers are related to dehydration, so I'm worrying that I'm dehydrated again.

I was so disoriented. I fell three times trying to get to the bathroom. After attempting to catch myself by grabbing a fan (ouch!), I just leaned on the wall the rest of the way.

Now, I'm sitting at work and my stomach and sides and back are killing me. Or I think they are. Or maybe I'm just stressing and making it worse. I'm staying in the restroom, too. I've been five times since I got up.

I want to go to the doctor and say "fix me!" and I want to go home.

On the one hand, I finally got my cycle after being so sick it stopped for three weeks. I can't take ibuprofen for that pain, which I normally do. That could explain most of the pain. On the other hand, I'm scared that the E. Coli is still rampant. I don't know.

I'm tempted to lock my office door and lay in the floor!

I don't know... I can't just keep going home every couple of days or I'm going to find myself unemployed. It makes me so angry, because I have worked while terribly, terribly sick before. I feel like the anxiety is just making it more difficult to push through. I don't know.

And, I don't want to look like a fool at the doctor's office, either. The last time I was there, the nurse who takes your blood and stuff said, "Honey, you're just falling apart, aren't you?" and laughed.

If that makes any sense, anyone got any thoughts?

Thank you, Kitt!

I'm going to therapy, but I've only been to two appointments so far, so I haven't made much progress.

I know I had E. Coli, but it seems like it should have been gone by now, I've finished the medicine.

I feel like I'm having a total break-down. I almost feel like I need to be hospitalized, but I cannot imagine actually doing that. In the past, I've been so dependable at work that there's actually not even a back-up plan for me. No one else even has a key to my office, and honestly, I'm very, very reticent to release any control. haha! I know there's a point where you have to, though.

Thank you for your reassurance that it's okay to seek medical help, though. I just feel like a big hypochondriac.

BR...do you have a fever? That is kind of my 'go to' indication...since like you say, it can be hard to distinguish between anxiety symptoms and actual symptoms of illness.

Also, time. Sometimes I just have to wait it out, and see if it goes away...as my anxiety is transient, and the symptoms don't last or get worse like with an illness.

See how you feel in a couple of hours...and if you are not feeling any better (or you're worse) by all means go in!

Take care and give us an update soon okay?

S.C.

Your "our" baby! ((:=)

Larry ***

Please, please, please take it easy!!!

Medication is only a part of the healing equation...

your body also needs rest and hydration to repair itself.

If you don't allow yourself time to heal, you could have a recurrance or secondary issue come up.

You health is priority #1!!!

Hugs,

S.C.

I'm at work and starting to feel all puny/pouty again. haha!

I've decided that I've only got enough energy for about 4-5 hours a day right now. Unfortunately, I've got another 9 ahead before I can go home and there's no one to fill in on this.

*insert multiple pouts here* haha!

hahaha! :)