Hello jo..all I can say is kudos for lookin at ur situation in a more positive light. Living wit anxiety is one of da most difficult conditions to live wit becuz it does make u feel like death is near. I recently suffered my very first panic attack two weeks ago and I haven't been my normal self since. Although I wake up every mornin and thank da Lord for allowin me to c anutha day..I always feel dat today mite b my last due to da constant symptoms of my anxiety. I dnt kno wat symptoms u suffer frm or have suffered frm but my symptoms r those dat completely mimic a heart attack. Left arm tinglin..back pain and neck pain and chest pain.Two years ago in da month of june I was rushed to emergency becuz of my heart. I believe da diagnosis was pericarditis (infection around my heart sak) .I was scared crapless but after bein treated and spendin a week in da hospital I fully recovered. Thank the lord..but every yr when june approaches I almost relive da horror of dat day I was rushed to da hospital and I become anxious. I believe dats y I had a panic attack two weeks ago. It would only make since cuz it happened dat same month and date I was hospitalized. But any who..I also took me havin a panic attack as a sign from god. I'm not exactly sure if its a sign to become more involved in religion and church or whether it happened to make me change negative habits. Before da attack I was prayin to god to help motivate me to stop smokin cigarettes..marijuana and stop drinkin alcohol and a coupke weeks lata I had an attack and even tho I still smoke cigarettes..I rarely consume alcohol and I no longer smoke marijuana. Baby steps of course lol but I too am lookin at dis situation as a new life..new beginnin..sure it succs dat it took dis to happen for me to change..but da fact dat it is happenin and I'm in da process of changin is amazing. So I can definitely relate to ur situation. Keep believin in god..he is definitely real and I wish u nuthin but da best!!
I'm 26 btw!!