What I've come to realize spiritually about my health anxiety.

Hello everyone

Today while reading a book about the faith I came to a realization about what I think all of this means to me.. So as you all who believe know that God has a plan for each and every one of us. He expresses it to you in interesting ways. Today I realized that maybe God put me through this for a reason. And I will tell you all what it is..

As a young man before all of this happened I was a laid back guy who just wanted to have fun and really never paid attention to the church that much. I was one of those guys who was like " oh great time to go to church" and never really payed attention much to what it meant. But as I came down with this anxiety it made me realize whats important. As some of you know I worry about heart issues at age 17 and have had basically all of the major tests and all came back normal but still was experiencing symptoms which made me worry that I was gonna die. And atleast for me when I feel I'm goin to die I start to pay attention to the faith more so I can get up into heaven. But as this progressed I really started to pay attention to the faith and not as an act of fear but as interest. And sooner or later I became involved in my faith more and realized the meaning to a certain extent because I don't know all yet. But the first point is that perhaps God put me through this so I can realize how important the faith is and to know and understand His love for me and for all.

Secondly, I think I may have figured out the meaning to why I had a 2 week break from my anxiety. As I prayed and prayed to God to help me and heal me of this devil called anxiety he finally answered my prayer and I had a great 2 week break from the worry and fear but why? I believe it was His way of showing me that I truly am healthy and that I can be both involved with the faith and be a healthy man. And as the anxiety rolled back in it was His way of telling me so you know how important the faith is and know that you are truly healthy so use what I have showed you and live your life. You may still have anxiety but you know you are truly okay. And through this whole experience I not only felt his love for me but he wants me to become a better man out of it so I may too help people through there tough times and express how God is in each and every one of us.

So that is what I experienced today. And perhaps this may still stick with me for awhile because God still wants me to learn and grow. I know because I came to this realization that I won't be cured an that I will have some struggles in the future but I thought it was cool and something I thought I should share.

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You are getting close enough to the fire to keep warm, Keep looking every day of you life, You'll find it.

Larry ***

Hello jo..all I can say is kudos for lookin at ur situation in a more positive light. Living wit anxiety is one of da most difficult conditions to live wit becuz it does make u feel like death is near. I recently suffered my very first panic attack two weeks ago and I haven't been my normal self since. Although I wake up every mornin and thank da Lord for allowin me to c anutha day..I always feel dat today mite b my last due to da constant symptoms of my anxiety. I dnt kno wat symptoms u suffer frm or have suffered frm but my symptoms r those dat completely mimic a heart attack. Left arm tinglin..back pain and neck pain and chest pain.Two years ago in da month of june I was rushed to emergency becuz of my heart. I believe da diagnosis was pericarditis (infection around my heart sak) .I was scared crapless but after bein treated and spendin a week in da hospital I fully recovered. Thank the lord..but every yr when june approaches I almost relive da horror of dat day I was rushed to da hospital and I become anxious. I believe dats y I had a panic attack two weeks ago. It would only make since cuz it happened dat same month and date I was hospitalized. But any who..I also took me havin a panic attack as a sign from god. I'm not exactly sure if its a sign to become more involved in religion and church or whether it happened to make me change negative habits. Before da attack I was prayin to god to help motivate me to stop smokin cigarettes..marijuana and stop drinkin alcohol and a coupke weeks lata I had an attack and even tho I still smoke cigarettes..I rarely consume alcohol and I no longer smoke marijuana. Baby steps of course lol but I too am lookin at dis situation as a new life..new beginnin..sure it succs dat it took dis to happen for me to change..but da fact dat it is happenin and I'm in da process of changin is amazing. So I can definitely relate to ur situation. Keep believin in god..he is definitely real and I wish u nuthin but da best!! I'm 26 btw!!

The wolrd needs more young men (and women) of your maturity and faith.

Thanks for giving us hope in your generation! :)

Keep listening to the 'still small voice.' At times it can be hard to hear, but keeping your walk with Him close and steady will strengthen your faith.

S.C.

Today has been good so far I went to see a movie with my family and that was fun. Still praying for healing for you all and that anxiety can be gone from our lives. I appreciate your comments but I agree. Seeing how my generation is growing up I fear for them and generations after us as well.