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Posted 7/8/2013 9:36 PM (GMT 0)
Hello,once again sorry for my english,I don't speak good,but I hope you will understand me.

Some thnigs about my situation: I was before more then 2 months at psychyatrist,he said I have depression,because of suicide thoughts etc.I lost wish to live,without any reason. I managed to overcome that period myself by reading other's people positive stories. 1 month after that I started to question about humans,what we are doing on this planet,about universe,about God etc.. I freaked out ,it was so scary. I had few times DP and DR, now I'm fine.

I want to live,I love life, but after all these existential questions and intrusive thoughts, I'm not relaxed or can enjoy life as before. As someone else said it's like I opened some book which I should not read,and now my life will never be the same as before after existential crisic and all that fear and anxiety.I also had fears of going insane etc.

I want to travel,go out with friends, but some strange fear comes out of nowhere at moments and stops me in enjoying my life? One moment I'm ok,I love life,people,enjoy in moment and then after that I feel some terrible fear without reason and I think how life is pointless and strange? It's like someone else foricng me to feel that way,because I don't want that fear in my life.
So,my problem is about fear ,and I don't know to explain what is the cause of that fear,because it comes up in my body and mind without warning and any good reason. It freaks me out and then I feel so hopeless. Does anybody else survived this,and what it can be? Is that anxiety or what?

Just when I think how I'm finally good, then out of nowhere comes sudden tension,fear and a sense of hopelessnes :-( It stop me in enjoying life, and I don't want that. It's against my will :-( I lost self-confidence because of these feelings,I feel weak.

Life is beautiufl,I want to live,but why sudden anxiety and STRONG fear without reason ruins my days if I love life and want to enjoy it?
Please someone help me and give advice.

Post Edited (Lana555) : 7/8/2013 4:29:17 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 7/8/2013 11:20 PM (GMT 0)
Lana,

I am sorry to hear that you continue to deal with fearful thoughts that are keeping you from doing all that you want to do.

Are you still seeing a psychiatrist? Perhaps doing therapy? Are you on any medications?

If not, I would encourage you to seek help again. Your regular doctor may be able to refer you to a therapist or group, and discuss the possibility of help from medication.

Many people have to seek help for a second, or subsequent times...it is a process. I went through two rounds of CBT therapy!

Please look into getting the help that you need...you deserve to feel your best.:)

Keep talking with us as well,

S.C.
Posted 7/9/2013 3:33 AM (GMT 0)
Lana, What you are feeling is pretty common for soldiers returning from a war, you see so much really bad stuff happen
you start to question the point of everything, Please realize that this will pass, it will take a little time just dont lose Faith
and don't compramize your standards, just hang in there and Pray when it moves you to, we are right here and wont
abandon you! Peace

Larry ***
Posted 7/9/2013 9:38 AM (GMT 0)
In a barber shop...

Barber: You know kid I don't believe there's a God.

Kid: Why?

Barber: Look outside, a lot of people have problems and some of them are suffering. if there's a God, he should be helping all of them and there should be no problems and suffering anymore.

Kid: Is that so? Me too. I don't believe barbers exist.

Barber: Why is that?

Kid: Look outside. why are there still many people who have long hair?

Barber: Well I can't cut their hair if they don't want me to.

Kid: Sir. it's also the same with God. He can't help us or fix our lives if we don't go to Him and ask Him for help and allow/let Him do His job. The good thing is you don't have to pay for anything. You just have to believe.

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Put all your worries and questions about life/existence aside. It's up to you to believe in things but negative thoughts makes us feel miserable and exhausted, we should do our best to break free from them. Hope you find reasons and answers to live life! God bless!
Posted 7/9/2013 3:56 PM (GMT 0)
Good analogy Joja!

Larry ***
Posted 7/9/2013 4:27 PM (GMT 0)
Scaredy Cat, I didn't continue to see psychiatrist because I'm afraid of medications, I'm trying first alone to overcome all this. What I need the most is talking to someone, at least I will go to psychoteraphist,it seems like better solution to me. Thank you for your advice,I will go to some therapy.

Igm,thank's I'm really supprised how people on this forum are so nice and friendly :-)

Joja,I will try my best to focus on present,and not think about life and existence,it's really bothering me.It's only problem because these thoughts comes out of nowhere in my mind,so I feel sad. I believe in God,I just don't like to think about all that because it's scary. I'm too emotional,so these questions about humans ,unknown,and what we are doing here are too hard to cope with.

I read somewehre about existentail questions,where one man told how he is afraid that God is "sadist", and after death he is afraid his soul will be forever lost in universe in pain for all eternity, and he think there will be noone who will ever help him. After his words I was terrifed and have big anxiety and asked myself :"what if that's really true?" and then my fear started. He also had existential crisic. So,I'm afraid of unknown and what happen to us after death.

Before that I was normal girl,thinking about makeup,shoes,parties,nature,friendships etc, and I want to be that girl again.


All I want is to enjoy my life in present and not think about these big questions.

Anyway, I'm fine now in this moment. Hope you are all doing well too :-)

Post Edited (Lana555) : 7/9/2013 11:08:55 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 7/10/2013 3:05 AM (GMT 0)
Whatever it is for us out there after death is one big question to all of us. We shouldn't live in fear from it while we're still alive. If there is eternal pain after death then this is our only chance to make the best out of our existence, we should feel grateful by being able to experience HAPPINESS here on earth. There also came a time in my life where I had these questions up until the point where I didn't believe in anything and felt so lost. I think we all have that "philosopher" thing inside of us. The thing that changed in me right now is that I found my reason to live for "my wife". Anxiety made me realize how much I am loved by God even when I questioned about Him before, how He led me to this forum and made me feel that I'm not alone. Now I'm grateful for every tiny piece of happiness that I usually ignore before.

The most important thing is to live our lives to the fullest. Our questions will all be answered in the end, it will come but this is not the day for it.
Posted 7/10/2013 5:53 AM (GMT 0)
Lana, you are worrying about someone elses bad dream, his fears are not even relevant, so put your mind
and heart at Peace, Just Love Him, He will do the rest. In the ancient languages they used the work Abbah
to describe God, this word translates to Daddy, Daddy would never hurt you or anyone!Peace

Larry ***
Posted 4/6/2015 8:26 AM (GMT 0)
this kind of feeling come to attack me this recently. Im just wondering whats wrong with me
i have the same feeling like lana.
Posted 4/6/2015 3:58 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Cinamedan and welcome,

I am sorry to hear you are struggling with these fears.:(

Are you currently being treated for anxiety and/or depression? Or is this your first experience with these feelings?

If this is a new challenge for you, I would recommend, as a first step, talking with your doctor.

You can discuss treatments options such as medication and/or therapy.

Know that we will always be here for support and to understand and listen...so post anytime.:)

Talk to you soon,

Scaredy Cat
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