Simply the horrifying fear of death

So I was thinking of going to hang out tonight but just like any other time of thinking I will be away from my comfort zone,my mind starts to roam and nerves act up I truly don't understand this and it's times like this that makes me want to check myself into a unit. Because it just gets hard and the ups and downs become way to much I mean I just don't understand, I just want to cry my eyes out but it's like what good would that do me. And I keep having these dizzy spells that are scary and me thinking it's my sugar,I go to check it because I am at work and it was 86 so it was ok,so having these spells any where. Has became extra scary and I can't help but wonder what is going on because it ain't normal,and I'am way over tired of it I just want to be healthy and enjoy my life. How can I when my mind just ain't right and my health ain't either, I'm thinking it's going to take something big to overcome all of this,takes me back to a story of my uncle who was a preacher a great fearless man of God my mom told me of a sermon he preach,where he had a small box like the ones they had before caskets. And in it was glass where the people could look in it one by one & they would see there self,she said people started to scream as tears ran down there face. Many scared at just the thought of doom and wonder I've only known a few with truth,that in their save life didn't fear being here and one day gone and truth is anxiety is the fear of the unknown. And that feeling you get with anxiety that death is near,shake death then anxiety will no longer be truth is everyone wants to live a long good life. Long is in the hands of the most high and wondering is in our minds¬ knowing can scare the living day lights out of many and millions just to be clear. Know this is nothing to be shame about because you are brave and bold to admit the truth,the word says he who fears death is in the thought it's not real. But many signs show that it's, And I wish anxiety didn't live and wasn't known of men and women that go to war what do most of them see? This is why anxiety set in, and can make life crazy at times. I just had to vent and clear emotions that where starting to build up and I just had to get it off my chest and hope I can feel better and I do a little bit I hope we all overcome this soon,and get to a point where it don't worry are stress od out at all like it can.