Scary day

So the day itself for the most part was fine but it all took off when my dad told me to mow the lawn.. I go into it with a little of a bad attitude because I didn't want to do it. Last time I did it I was drenched in sweat and breathing hard afterwards which did freak me out then. But today took the cake. I go into it with some anxiety. First part was fine with some anxiety I got through it but when I hit the backyard I started to take more and more deep breaths because I felt like I wasn't getting enough air as I continued it only seemed to get worse. I started to slow down because I was breathing harder and trying to take more deep breaths and started to sweat and my chest was feeling weird I felt like grinding or gurgling feeling in my chest and as I continued took more deep breaths sweating slower pace and those feelings I thought I was going to collapse. Then I got to a point where I started to feel wobbly and a little light headed then I thought this is it I'm going to go. I stopped went up the deck into my house and my dad asked whats wrong I said I don't know I don't know hand near my chest. My dad said your fine go finish the yard and turned around to watch TV so I felt like he didnt care one bit. I went back outside still wobbly and breathing out of my mouth but things calmed a bit. I was angry scared and just feeling really bad. I finished it then sat down for like fifteen minutes and only my mom said what are you doing. I said I'm sitting down and she walked away and just did nothing I knew what I was actually doing but didnt want to tell them. And all of that that I described is gone except the thoughts about what just happened and the grinding gurgling feeling and I still feel a little wobbly but that was about and hour or so ago. Guys I am scared right now and feel everything and good feeling is gone right now because of that scary moment and have no one in my family to turn to...

Thanks BeRock! I supposed I should have done that and perhaps you were right about hyperventilating. But it was scary and has left a little of a mark on me right now but it'll go away I hope it was just a scary experience.

So sorry you had a bad day. All of us have them. Friday was probably the worst day anxiety/panic wise I've had in 13 years. The crazy thing is that you came out of it. It's always scary because you fear it's going to happen again. Everyone needs somebody to talk with who understands. I have all of you all here and then my good friend who also has anxiety plus she is a nurse so it helps so much and she is so patient with me.
Hope you find your sounding board if nothing else but for a gig when you need it.
I have learned the great people on here are always there for you!!
Hang in there this too shall pass

Hang in there Joshua, you are having more goods than bads.

Larry ***

It will be!