Hello and welcome.:)
I am sorry that you are going through this rough time right now. Great job on using your coping skills to help you weather the storm!
Here are a couple of links that might help answer some of your questions, and give you some guidance. (these are from our Resources on our main page...check out the other great stuff in there as well!)
http://www.theroadback.org/
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/HomePage
I wish you the best...and please know that we are here for you anytime, so post often.
Looking forward to getting to know you better.
S.C.