I could forever trust has became just like everyone else&this is not a sad post it's how ever Iam thankful post,my mother is getn older&the older she becomes the more mean she gets. And she forgets things&I have been watching her for a year&Ive notice it get worse. She don't want to see it&face it but soon I see myself taking her keys from her,she is 56 years old and I pray for her mind&why I must get stronger,and do what I need to do to better me because I can see it now I will be the one taking care of her. But I ask God to let that be a real long time from now&until then I desire to live my life drama&stress free&she is a huge part of my stress,told her today Iam way over tired of her rudeness. And had a prayer with God and told him that I love my mom but not as much as I use to,to the point where I thought I could never live without her. But I have came to learn that I can and a person that does hateful things to cut you deep,just because they think it's ok and it aint can cause that kind of change. Ive done much for her with what ever I have had small are big,but it's never good enough and Ive just became fed up with it and I will always love her. But I see how with truth daughters move away from their mothers&only come home when need be,but me being a child of the King&looking to grow stronger in Him. I must keep peace inspite of&hand the rest over to Him trusting Him to take care of the rest of it,and as I told her I love her but Iam praying for her. And thats real because nobody can take anything and turn it around like God can,and I know him to be more then a able God and I speak change for the greater good.
Post Edited (SoulNHealing) : 8/15/2013 8:51:57 PM (GMT-6)