Tug Of War

I got to be set free from this and Iam not talking about anxiety,Iam talking about right from wrong. And even when I may want to do wrong my dang mind want let me&then it trys,better yet it does eat away at me&Iam sick of it I mean I don't drink are none of that. Iam talking about when one has boyfriend&what they do.

Oh why must I hear in my head you know it's wrong¬ right&then my mind fearful wise takes me to the word,of what happen to ppl that don't do what God says do. I don't want the father mad at me but at the sametime it's like Iam only human God,Iam not perfect I make mistakes&Ive made some wrong ones that Iam not happy about. Why beat me up about the desire&want to only hear God say this is what you ask me for,I didb't ask for a mind that over worry I ask to make me careful of what I do&to make me more like you. I don't like the fear that this holds over my head,how do I shake this I just want to be free&live&walk in my truth without being fearful of any lil thing I do. Christian life is hard and not easy&I pray that my thought become better,with peace&understanding of this is why this is and understand a lil better. No other side I rather be on but don't want to keep on worrying myself to try&be this lil perfect being,my mind has been playing evil tricks on me&I hate the state of mind Iam in just trying to work to not go back to where I once was&keep myself pure.

Dawn the problem you are having with the flesh is not unique to you, almost everyone alive deals with
this, and Yes even at my age it still controls much of my thinking. so dont beat yourself up, I know one
thing for sure, you and I are not going to do anything that surprises God. We are all the same. Peace

Larry ***