Not sure if this is an attack, or sick

I hate not being able to objectively analyze my own symptoms. Hoping you guys can offer your opinions. :)

Last night, I had what I said was a panic attack in the tub. My chest and back were hurting really bad and I started feeling faint.

Told myself, "it's just a panic attack." and just tried to keep going, but my arm went so numb that I dropped my razor, and got so shaky that I actually couldn't get myself up out of the tub. (Thank goodness for a patient hubby).

I just took my meds (which he had to open) and went to bed.

This morning, though, I'm still feeling pretty ill. I have the use of my hand back, but I feel very, very faint in addition to some random pain.

I do have several particular things that I'm worried about. (brother's birthday party, I finally told my mom the extent of my depression because she was mad at me for taking off of work and she's been crying a lot since, offered to make some posters for someone last night and obviously didn't do it, since I couldn't hold a paint brush, it's gotten around town that I'm off work because I'm "crazy" and people keep showing up to check that I'm still alive but I've been neglecting my house and don't want them in it, etc.)

So, I'm pretty sure this is just a bad extended attack, but this little voice in my head keeps saying "this feels different, something is wrong!"

Joy what would you tell some lady on HW that you had been following for months, someone you have
grown to care for, worry about, you know, someone like you. They still have no idea at the power and
potential of the human mind if they ever do figure it out they will probably shut down all the electric
power plants. I know you can give good advice to others but you think your case is different. The book
i am reading was written back before WW11 and its about how group therapy is superior to one on one.
In the book they have several people who seem to think just like you, that they're different. I think you may have some non threatening internal illness, but you definitely have an overactive imagination + a high level of intelligence plus sever fear induced anxiety. Thats enough for anyone. What people forget is that when they suffer a really severe attack, they will not feel good the next day because they spent the night beating hell out of themselves. Its going to take a couple of days, and you might still have some infection working against you. Try to cut yourself some slack, your not even close to dying and
your fear if you really annalise it is the same old booger man that haunts every anxiety person we know. It's Sunday be nice to yourself, be nice to someone we (HW) people love and care for! Always
Peace
Larry ***

Thank you for your support Holly berry! Not sure we've talked before - nice to meet you!

BR,

I am glad that you are feeling better now!

If I can just offer you one small bit of wisdom that has always brought me comfort...it is that we can't control what others think about us...so aside from trying to be a good person...we shouldn't care how others perceive us...talk about or think about us!

You are a fantastic person...no one can change that. It doesn't matter what others know, or what info might be circulating. It doesn't matter what your house looks like...what matters is that you take care of yourself...

...so don't give anyone else a second thought, and focus on yourself.

If you feel like having people over, then do...if you do not, then just make it clear that you are not currently having visitors.

Stay in the moment...take your healing one day, (or hour!) at a time, and know that things are going to get better...try to be patient with yourself and the process.

We are cheering you on!

S.C.

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Awww lady stay up thats just what it was anxiety and in the level 10zone where everything goes num,been there before done that&you will get through this. You are already taking the first steps to true healing&best of luck to you.