Where Am I Going?

I haven't been dealing with anxiety here lately but more of a sad mind because I have took a deep look at my life,and I so don't like what I see and at 28years old I have nothing to my name but doctor bills&there is alot of them. I have health care&get free mental health care for a year. But my health care suck because I still end up with 7,000 bills&I hate to even open them,I work on a job where I have went from 25hours a week to 9 &thats because I work with a evil person who think it's ok to play with ppl lives. Ive put up with this mess for 7years&why because Ive came close to getn another job,but she&another messed that up&Ive let it be known to her that slander can get her in trouble. Ive had days where Ive felt like doing nothing&I don't know if Iam coming are going,I haven't left house in two days because I just can't get out of my bed clothes&yes you can say for the last few days. Ive been feeling extra sorry for myself&never one to truely do that but yes Ive been&know I must come up out this mode quick,because it's not good for my being&I just want crap together. And know I need to stop saying I want, I want and go get. Because nothing will come to me but I just get real tired of feeling apps out,I just wish God would bless me already with a better job I keep praying too. Because there is not much more of this I can take&Iam trying my best not tp quit,because that will get me no where at all because the lil I make do help me with some bills. I share to heal because my life is a book that I try to get new pages in& have better and more,trying to keep faith that it will get better&become more better for me.

Post Edited (SoulNHealing) : 8/21/2013 12:28:12 AM (GMT-6)

From one girl in her pajamas for the second day to another - I agree with everything S.C. has said.

The only thing I would add is this - 28 is early in the game. You don't have to feel like you're winning, yet. You're just getting ready for that dramatic win!

You're going to get there, just continue to lean on your faith, baby girl. There are tests and trials. We don't have to get through them without tears, we just have to get through them.

My psychologist has shared with me about her own background. At your age, she was spending many of her days at home with bills piling around her. She began college when she was 30 years old. Now, she's one of the most respected counselors in my area. (And I bet she's paid off those bills.)

Hang in there friend, the fat lady hasn't even started warming up her vocal chords yet, much less sang!