Posted 8/22/2013 5:45 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Everybody!
Been at least a few weeks since I posted a topic on here, but wanted to share with you we're finally come up to 38 weeks in the pregnancy. Actually we are 37 weeks and 5 days now! All the appointments have gone well so far and the baby is getting bigger and bigger and she's moving around really well. It's the first for us both so its just amazing to watch my wife go through all these body changes.
I have to admit, a little scary too! Right now it's 1:30AM, I can't sleep cause I've had a bit of a cold & cough the past several days and been working through it (and dear wife is happily snoring very loudly!), but also really I think its because I kind of feel like a kid waiting for Christmas to ....finally.....arrive. You know, that kind of feeling of great anticipation and wanting Christmas morning to just come already!
I would be lying if I didn't say I didn't have any anxiety about it, but I've been doing a lot better lately with anxiety.,..dare I say completely over it? I wanted to let you all know that it gets so much easier to work with your anxiety when you accept it, and just power on with your day. Anxiety can make us afraid of another anxiety or panic attack, but as soon as I stopped worrying about my anxiety and walking along side it the better I've been feeling...and progressively so! Little by little, day after day, I'm building up my self-confidence again. I think stress, cold, baby thoughts have definitely been on my mind lthe last few days, as we approach the final stretch I can't help but what if this and that. And you know what - that's totally normal! I'm not totally confident in my ability to parent, or to do a good job, in fact I'm kind of afraid of it all. But like anything else, I'm going to jump into it and just do it!
I just wanted to post today to let you know its OK to be afraid and unsure, and to question and feel worried. These are all normal human emotions, and we all just need to be human now and then. I hope that you keep your head high and keep walking, because anxiety won't stop you, only you will.
Take it from me, as hard as it is to go out and do something or be somewhere that creates anxious thoughts, symptoms, or panic, do it anyway. The more you do it, the less anxiety will mean to you and the more you will start to regain the old you. Please don't fall into traps of self-pity, it's so easy to do. When you are feeling a little bit down, anxious or in need of a friend, remember your closest ally in life is you!
Best of luck to you and hope you are feeling better soon!
Joshua