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Posted 8/31/2013 10:28 PM (GMT 0)
Hers my story again for the new ones:

Hi my name is kortnie I'm 21 and just one day about three months ago it just hit me out of the blue I was cold but hot shaking like crazy heart pounding feeling like I'm gonna pass out nauseated tried to sleep it off but woke every two hours so finally about 2am I woke my Grandma and asked her to take me out so she got up and took me out and it all started out from there everyday I felt horrible constant physical symptoms could eat lost 28 lbs within the two months was to the er everyday also for the two months oh almost forgot couldn't eat for the two months and was couch ridden that is still where I sleep..... I am now seeing a therapist for CBT at community mental health the only medications I take is bisprolol (beta blocker) and vistral(hydroxyzine) for sleep... I felt good for about a week maybe.. But now I'm back to feeling like this I've had several tests such as: CT scan on head stomach heart MRI for heart and brain all kinds of blood tests all come back normal I've send lots of specialist such as: gynecologists, ENT , cardiologist, neurologist I just don't get it this really anxiety? I thought it was until I started feeling like crap AGAIN I just don't want to suffer anymore I wasn't my HAPPY life back cry I wanna be back sleeping in my own bed with my boyfriend cry

Post Edited By Moderator (Scaredy Cat) : 8/31/2013 10:06:45 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 8/31/2013 11:52 PM (GMT 0)
Did anything trigger the first episode? Did you do anything different? Eat anything different, go anywhere different...anything?

It could be anxiety, but it's rather weird to have that happen out of the blue with no triggers.

It could be a reaction to something, an allergy etc.

Did you get bitten by anything? A spider? A tick?

What are you doing prior to these episodes? How long do they last? What makes them go away? The more info you give us, the more feedback we can give you!
Posted 9/1/2013 1:23 AM (GMT 0)
No three was nothing to cause out trigger it.. No I wasn't bitten by anything and I have it constantly
Posted 9/1/2013 1:53 AM (GMT 0)
Might be an allergy, but yes, anxiety can do all these things to you. You aren't alone though, remember that, lots and lots of us go through these symptoms with you on a daily basis as well.

Try to think happy, good thoughts in the meantime they will help you out in the long run, might not be instant, but think of good thoughts and memories, it helps.

I'll pray for you.

-Jess
Posted 9/1/2013 3:08 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks Jess
Posted 9/1/2013 4:08 AM (GMT 0)
Kort,

Sometimes it is one step forward...two back.

...but before you know it, you will just be walking forward in your recovery. Setbacks happen, and there doesn't need to necessarily be a trigger.

Just keep working on your coping skills, and pushing yourself gently. You are progressing!

Keep up the good work.;)

S.C.
Posted 9/1/2013 12:24 PM (GMT 0)
Kortnie

Totally normal things can be the onset of anxiety when misinterpreted by our minds and bodies. One of the craziest/full blow panic episodes I had was when I got food poisoning in New York. I got up and left the Lion King show in the first opening scene, they almost called the ambulance to the theatre. I sat down for awhile and just walked back to the hotel. By this time my mind was a crazy mess, I had pulled out my insurance card, was telling me wife what to do if I die, I was a sweating horrible hot-mess!

Then I jumped in the shower fully-clothed to cool down and threw up several times and had 3 days of watery and horrible stool which left my dehydrated for days! What should have registered as "really bad food poisoning" registered itself in my head as "I'm going to die, right now!" Then came the next 9-10 months of generalized anxiety, more panic attacks, Xanax, CBT, counseling, self-help.

I finally just gave up and said to myself and the universe "yes, I accept all this crazy hell, I accept it!" I went about my day normally, living alongside my anxiety for months and months. I fought it like hell but lost EVERY time. When I was too tired and just gave up, my mind was quiet and I had mini-anxiety-free-vacations. Something just clicked about three or four months ago I just threw my arms up and said I accept all this and myself....

And it took time but my mind go quieter and quieter until where I am today. I can talk freely about anxiety, sometimes here and there I still feel it come on but I can wipe it away real quick.

I hope you find some place in your life where you can just stop fighting it and go with it. Anxiety is not meant to be fought and it will hand you your head in a basket every time. Accept it, and carry on.

I hope you are feeling better soon.

Joshua
Posted 9/1/2013 2:20 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you Joshua
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