CHANGE

The great Sam Cook song"A Change Going To Come" speaks so clearly of to whereIam today,Iam not 100% but Iam getn there it's a fight trust me no one knows your fight better then me. Fact is I shouldn't be here right now my mind was 90%gone&I had one foot in the grave,I wasn't eating&me &the devil became friends at one time because I was so angry at God&I didn't understand why so much pain&so much h*ll I with truth turn my back on my faith&walked away from my God&for a long time refusr to speak his name.

That will never happen again because I would rather be going through with God then going through on my own,I still search for answers in this walk of change but there is one thing I understand. God gives hard fights and hard storms to the ones he know can take it,so that must mean we are something special&its in our fight we find our true strength.Life good are bad is so beautiful&there have been many who gave into the fight&wasn't strong enough to run to the end&either by their hand are Gods He gave a word&said enough,it's done thats how great He is truth iseven when we don't understand it,He don't want to see us going through but Heaven we can't just walk in there is a price to be it aint free. But we do have a choice&through the good&bad all the tears you&I have had to cry we made it,we are making it&we have came to far to give in are up now. So keep pushing your way through&fight with your all&pray your strength&know that God is a present help in times of trouble he is easy to call,Jesus call him when you want Him&when you need him for he sits next to the Father high looking low&he can change it all. He can heal your mind,you just don't know the fear I once had real deep where my body ache&I would jump at the sound of my own name&shake&lose much sleep anxiety was a 10 took pills to sleep&I would sometime over power them. Would take a sedative 3xs a day to help keep me calm,but happy to say anxiety is a Level 7&thats just on some days&I stay up late still but thats on my own will I can sleep out of no where&have no fear to rest.

I no longer take sleeping pills&I take a sedative maybe 1 x to 2xs a day and sometimes(like today)none at all I can stand in peace no jumping out of no where,I no longer check my BP 3xs a Day. Only time I do is when Ive had to much sugar&thats another thing,watch your sugar in take this can truely help&make sure to drink alot of water&when your mind start to shake with Anxiety read a book,are sing are jump up&do something to take your mind off neg. And if you can't sleep early in am,don't just lay in bed get up move around&do something because laying there will cause anxiety to work because your mind is busy and has time to think neg. So keep it moving in a good way&this I know because it has help me&talk good things into your life&mind knowing your greater is on the way&sorry this is so long when I write Iam free. Best of Luck to you all! For a change is going to come know it and trust it with your all.