Posted 9/25/2013 1:25 PM (GMT 0)
I think I have to do this for myself, as much as I do not want to. For me, the internet is a problem when it comes to my anxiety. I am a hypochondriac, and have panic disorder. When I hear symptoms of a disease, I get them. I can't even listen to someone talking about cancer, or a disease cause it sets off this trigger. The internet is incredible the things it can do, but it has it's downside for anxiety sufferers. I this week, have convinced myself that I have ovarian cancer, something my closest aunt to my died of not to long ago. I feel absolutely awful. I have bloating, pelvic pain, bowel problems, upset stomach, back pain, nausea, leg pain, shortness of breath, all of it, and I could name symptoms for other diseases on top of that.
I am 20 years old, and feel 5 times my age (maybe not that much, LOL). I honestly, could read up on a disease, and convince myself I have it, and then strangely enough I get all of the symptoms. And it is having its toll on me. I wake up even having to run to the washroom because I get myself so upset and worried. I think, imagine the people that do have these diseases and what they go through, because I saw it with my aunt, and it was awful, I still have not faced that, and to think I have a disease just because she did, on my part, seems very stupid.
So here is my plan, I need to cut myself off from the internet. It is so hard because now even phones have internet, I feel like I can't get away from it. It is completely harming me and if I feel a dull ache, my first instinct is google and I put myself in a panic. It is affecting my body physically, mentally, and affecting others around me. I am no longer myself at work, at home, I am always scared and sad. I just need to do this, not worry about things, even though I probably have all the information in my head, I just need to try and see if this will work.