Posted 10/9/2013 7:58 PM (GMT 0)
I'm in the middle of a legal problem at work. It's tiring, it's going to be long and it's being frustrating. I feel like I want to quit and not to know about anything, but at the same time I feel this can be good for me because I can start facing those kind of big things. I dno't know how it's going to end, maybe not in my favor (?), but I just want to be able to face those thing and not to feel me like a loser if it doesn't end good for me.
When I'm home I don't want to think about all of that, I just want to relax and pretend everything is right, but I can't. I feel like I have to be thinking about it and see what I should do or talk about it like 24/7, because if I don't I'm being irresponsible or I'm acting like I don't care, or it's going to end in something bad. Like, if i don't think about it, I'm not doing anything to solve it. Or if I don't thinkabout it, I am saying like: waa whatever... And in the end I'm going to have a bad result, just because I didn't care and everything is going to be wrong. Like the correct attitude, like a grown person would do is to think about it always and always and be worried. Like if I think about it always and always it means I care.
But it's too tiring :(, but I can't stop thinking about it.