Of course I'd feel this way...!! :(

Hi, Everyone,
I had been feeling somewhat nervous all day today, except late in the evening and tonight. And I think I know why I'm feeling that way...first of all, I am always worried about my Mom who has COPD. She's been coughing a lot these past few days and she says it's b/c of the allergens in the air. Still, I get all scarey inside at the thought of something happening to her...there's no peace in my mind.
Then, on top of that, I'm actually fretting over my niece's romance. Of course I'm concerned about her making the right choices as to whether she should be with this guy, but I believe my deepest fear lies in that I know that if she should actually marry this guy, things will never be the same! I know that's ridiculous of me!!! You see, she's always been my "baby" and even though she's 25 now, I guess I'm finding it hard to lose her in the sense that our whole dynamic will change. I remember crying when my sister left to get married. Since then, since she naturally has her own life to live and has her plate full with working and taking care of her disabled grandson, we have seldom ever got together and I rarely see her, even though we live in the same town. So even though we love and care about each other, the closeness we used to have faded away over the years....so now I'm afraid of "losing" my niece similarly.
I know that life is all about change and time stands still for no one. I guess I'm dreading such a major change as I've never been good at it (as I've shared with y'all before!)
I want her to live her life and be happy. I just wish I knew how to stop all these feelings of dread and anxiety over it!
I suppose I sound pretty stupid, but I just can't help how I feel! I know it is useless to worry, yet, I can't seem to stop
myself!
Any suggestions? I wish I had some xanax when I have days like these, but the place I go for my mental health refuses to prescribe benzos to anyone! B/c of a few cases of addiction, they make everyone else suffer for it. I never abused xanax in all the years I was on it and am the one that took myself off of it! I wouldn't take it everyday, just occasionally on days like today. Oh well, nothing one can do about that.
jl

JL,

I understand your feelings, and know that change can be a hard thing to deal with!

Try to look at it this way...you had a very rough time when your sister got married...but look at what that change brought about! Your beautiful treasure...your niece.:)

There are always two sides to every situation. Yes, this may be an adjustment, but like Larry mentioned, it could bring about many blessings that you weren't expecting.

I will keep your mom and her health in my thoughts and prayers. I too have concerns for my own dear mom, as she is showing signs of memory/cognitive problems.:(

Hugs to you today!

S.C.

Thanks, y'all. Everything you've said makes sense and I know it. But I get so aggravated/irritated/depressed b/c i can't turn off the stupid nerves! I'm going to take some taurine and try to work through it all. I'm so tired and sleepy. When I get anxy, I get really exhausted. I have to go to the laundromat today and hate having to drive when I'm like this...but it's not far at all thankfully.
I will take some benadryl or vistaril if I don't feel better later. I just don't need to get sleepier!
jl

lgm1942 said...
Peace, Rest, Recovery!

Larry ***

Thank you, Larry!
The taurine seemed to help me very well!
I was able to do all I needed to. I'm still very tired and sleepy,
but I did feel better some today, so I am glad about that!
may you feel better too!
janetlee