Feeling A Bit Down

I kinda know what it is are do I? Out of no where I became sad like I want to cry&I wasn't thinking about anything,how ever Iam a bit burnt out watching her love her much&she is my heart but today was one of those days she just about drive me crazy. Ive never known a lil person to be so grown&I want be doing this for much longer,I don't like how Iam feeling&feeling burnt out&I refuse to end back where I came from this dang pre-pms got me ready to burse into tears&I could kindly pull someone heads off their neck. And out of no where I feel like a pregnant woman had to take some tumms to relax my belly,been feeling sick to my belly all day off&on&I don't like it either.
Monday I have a dr visit with psyc doctor the one that control the meds&let her know how it is going,and I will be keeping it 100% celexa not working&when I go days without vistril I have withdrawl like they lied and said vistril isn't as powerful as xanax&ativan. I just don't want to be on anything I want to be free of meds&be happy but who the heck am I fooling&at the sametime I don't want to make a switch&have to start all over having small anxiety thinking about that. I so just want my dang life on track&to feel 100% better I don't like these down in the low low valley type of feelings,Iam like snap out of it Love snap out of it Lord be my rock Jesus for without you I can't make it. My air in my lungs my light&my peace my grace&my fresh air in summer days,Iam grateful but right now angry at how Iam feeling I don't like feeling this way I hate it I so hate it with every fiber of my being I just do.

I remember when I first met You here, You are better, "not well, just better" probably the theraputic effect
of having HW for an outlet, Hange tough and see what the doctor says, and make sure the doctor hears what
you say, Peace.

Larry ***