Good to read you are doing better and talking with us here in the forum is good therapy too.
I am going to post a quote by Chogyam Trungpa from the book
Broken open: How Difficult Times Help Us Grow:
"Going beyond fear begins when we examine our fear: our anxiety, concern,
nervousness, and restlessness. If we look into our fear, if we look beneath the
veneer, the first thing we find is sadness, beneath the nervousness. Nervousness
is cranking up, vibrating all the time.
When we slow down, when we relax with
our fear, we find sadness, which is calm and gentle. Sadness hits you in your
heart, and your body produces a tear. Before you cry there is a feeling in your
chest and then, after that, you produce tears in your eyes. You are about
to
produce rain or waterfall in your eyes and you feel sad and lonely.
This is the first tip of fearlessness,
and the first sign of real warriorship. You might think that, when you
experience fearlessness, you will hear the
opening to Beethoven’s Fifth Symphony
or see a great explosion in the sky, but it doesn’t happen that way. Discovering
fearlessness comes from working with the softness of the human heart.”
I found this great article this morning that you may find interesting:
http://conscious-transitions.com/the-architecture-of-anxiety-and-intrusive-thoughts/ I wish you peace,
Kitt