Just Venting

My heart has been racing all day. I know I'm fine. My mom brought me lunch and supervised as I put up Christmas decorations. I exchanged books with a friend in the afternoon. Nothing stressful has happened at all. Just a calm, no expectation, day. I hate this! I'm breathing. Just need to vent and no one around me gets it. It's so much easier to deal with anxiety when there is an identifiable trigger!

When I use to suffer with horrible anxiety and panic, I don't know where it come from but I would have a
mental picture of God siting on His throne, and millions of kids playing in front of Him as far as I could see,
I would feel so sorry for myself, I would sneak up behind Him and sit just to the back and kind of by the back
leg, My Heart was breaking I wanted to be a part of this Kingdom, "Then His hand would drop down right in
front of my face, and it opened, I heard Him say take My Hand, when I put my hand in His my entire being was transformed, I was filled with Peace". He pulled me up and sent me to play with the others! I'm just an
old man who Love's all of You!, Peace

Larry ***