Posted 12/2/2013 4:30 PM (GMT 0)
I had to come here&write out my thought because my heart is still heavy in fact my mind want let me understand,Ive been dealing with alot and I fight everyday with hope that God knows better&that he has better in store. Lord I pray&I do my best tostay close,but for some reason my heart is to soft&this death took me all the way down. Ive only felt this way deep two times about stars and first time was when Aaliyah died,and now for the last few days after Paul Walker death I didn't know these people but my soul feel like I did&I don't understand Lord I was sleep off&on all day yesterday just not to think of him&how sad he went out my hope is that they where sleep and didn't feel pain. How can someone die so wrong in my view burn so bad no one knew if it was true,they only knew because they saw the two a few min before. I saw a last pic of him and the look on his face makes me feel like he knew but kept going,because no one ever wants to give in to the thought of what if today. God my heart is feel with pain&I hurt for all I never want to see pain of any kind on anyone,because thats not my soul I care and in fact I feel I care to much at times but can't help it because I must've been born with half your heart. Lord I want to understand how bad things/tragic things happen to people you said in your word you love&never want to see in pain. And I do my best not to ? but at times my heart ask how come,please forgive me for this because I the soul shouldn't ? You but me the human is trying to understand. Please send your helping hand&help heal my heart&take this anxiety,I don't want it never have&never did please God Iam so sick of it&help me to let go of this pain I feel&make peace with what cause me to live in fear. Happy and living all I can because fact is life is short&we never know and Iam tired of living the same thing over&over let me live&live all I can with no U should've did this or that,because I will be doing it all please pray hard for the world&one another as we do our part to give more love.
Sleep in Peace Paul Walker(1973-2013) & Roger Rodas(1975-2013) you both got your wings together.