Just a quick update on how I'm feeling and doing. The intrusive thoughts are still in my head, but I feel a lot more confident in a few things. One is that they aren't me - they're just thoughts. Another is the fact that I'm feeling "normal" and am being more confident in feeling normal.
I'm learning how to think and function normally again without the obsessions that have consumed me the past couple of months. I'm seeing that it's okay to have positive, normal and happy thoughts without the negative reprucusions and without mentally "testing" myself with negative thoughts to make sure I reject them. I'm understanding that this is a recovery process, not a light switch. Each day I'm trying to be as positive as possible and even if I have a setback know that I've already come very far and while that particular moment might be tough, I can and will get through this all.
I think I'm in a good place, and my goal is to keep breaking my mental routines and patterns so I can continue to manage and quiet the unnecessary intrusive thoughts and noise.