panic attack filled days

Hello all, it has been along time since i have posted here. To be honest my anxiety was doing a lot better until about four months ago. A good example of how bad it has gotten: i have always been completely against any form of medication for myself and i am at the point where i have seriously considered taking the pills. My husband works in the health care as a caregiver and his client went into the hospital in Aug, so he hasnt worked since then. When the client passed in Oct, it sent my husband into a bad case of depression. I have really tried to be understand but his bad days make my anxiety attack that much worse. Well anyhow, we have been paying our bills off my school loans but at the beginning of Dec our bank acct went into the hole by a lot due to our rent coming out. While our rent was paid up till now, none of my other bills are being paid because my school money ran out then. I have lost just about everything to overdue bills. My truck is undrivable at the moment due to no insurance and no tags, my cell phones are done, i have literally almost no food in the house (because my foodstamps are down, thats a whole different problem) and just this morning my netflix went down. While i realize that of all things Netflix isnt that big of thing, it was like the final straw. I am sitting here with one panic attack after another. I am tired. My friend is trying to get me a job at a school which will be wonderful but a part of me is fearful because of my attacks. All the while my husband isnt really doing anything, he isnt looking for a job or helping me clean the house. I am having to get a full time job, go to school full time and be a full time parent and housewife. I am not sure if my sanity can handle anything else.
okay i'm done
thank you for listening.

Hello SK,

Sorry to read of your problems.  Your job, when you’re behind, is to prioritize. Decide, every month, where the money is going. Maybe right now, it doesn’t cover everything. But if it can keep a roof over your head and sanitary conditions under that roof, you can work from there. The piece that many people struggle to wrap their heads around is that it’s even harder to tackle your financial situation when you’re about to become homeless.

Look into getting a full time job and keep talking with your husband re his getting out to find a job as the two of you are in this together.

With all your facing any person would be anxious.  Taking action beats living in anxiety. 

Don't forget all the places that will help you out - do you have a family services available in your city.  Also your church, do you belong to any group such as a church that would help you get back on your feet.

Remember any job is better than losing your home.  School can be put on hold when it comes to choosing between your family home and your education.

I raised 3 children as a single Mom and took a job in a factory.........eventually I found myself in a better place and went to school for my RN.

Using the computer is great to find leads but nothing beat presenting yourself to a firm that may be looking for an employee.  Also follow up on your cold calls so you are remembered.

I hope this helps.............sending you big hugs and lots of self-esteem to get this problem taken care of.

Kindly,

Kitt