I think I found my anwser as far as meds go..

So as some of you may know I am dealing with the constant battle of whether to take my Lexapro. I am a college kid with GAD. I spent all last semester worrying about made up illnesses I told myself I had. I have to say I think I am doing decent so far so I am not on the meds. I have medicine for a panic attack if need be but other than that I am not going to take the Lexapro until I feel like I really need too. I cannot gain the weight or deal with the side effects. that was another problem with me taking meds. I would worry about every ache and pain and think it was a bad side effect. I feel as good now as I have in a long time not taking any medicine.

Along to my next point. "SWIM" knows a person who is sweet and nice but looks like a zombie and is so silent and shy all the time. She almost looks sad. Anyways SWIM was over at her apartment and had to use the restroom. Anyways SWIM saw a bottle on the counter and well since swim is nosy he took a look at it. It wasn't hidden so SWIM figured what harm could it be. And the bottle happened to a prescription for Zoloft. This explained a lot to SWIM and how some people report being zombie like when taking anti depressants and in particular Zoloft/Lexapro. Swim now would love to see how this girl truly is without being on medicines

From SWIMS story I know I don't want to be a zombie. I have anxiety , obsession and anger issues. But at the end of the day that's who I am and I don't want to give myself pills to make myself someone I am not.

Any one care to offer advice?

I agree with Mirrida on this but I understand what you are saying, but honestly do any of you know how
bad the girl was before her zoloft? I have seen both side of this,people who regressed to having to wear
depends and suck their thumbs, I have met some really cool people and found out later they took zoloft,

As far as your own course of action it is much the same as I did, I only took xanax as needed for panic
but in the early days I took as many as 4 of the 1.0 mg a day, over time and I mean ten years I worked
down to 0, it's been over two years now but if I have a panic attack I have some old moldy ones and I
wont hesitate. Peace
Larry ***

S.C. and Larry are right. If my post sounded like I was suggesting you take a medication you're not comfortable with, I apologize for that.

I was merely commenting on the aspect of your post concerned with changing who you are. The correct medication, when found for you, will level off the anxiety to a manageable level where you can control it.

If you need the medication, and it helps you to feel comfortable, any changes you see may well be you feeling better.

But yes, as S.C. mentioned, if you are feeling afraid to take it, discuss your fears with your doctor and therapist. Some options are starting an extremely low dose (I've done this before, for the same reasons as you)....or maintain the coping skills that are working for you now.

But yes, the choice should be yours.



M.