Vent

Ok, so I was confronted by a colleague this morning and ended up agreeing to do something a certain way, even though it is actually against my principles (my fault! Shouldn't have agreed to change my behaviour to please someone else, (in this instance))

The second time, about something else (different), I tried to defend myself, and was told in no uncertain words that if I had not done 'B', then the person would not be angry;  however, I was still using the area, and had literally walked away for a minute before coming back. (I had done nothing wrong) Someone else had left the space the way that it was, though then I start to even doubt myself! but even if it was me, the way that the person spoke to me was in my opinion out of order, no matter what.

This really upset me. I was shaking and cried afterwards, I am probably more angry than anything, and feel sad.

My other colleagues were supportive towards me, but it doesn't resolve the fact that this will keep happening now and again. Finding it difficult to get along with this situation as it is building up anger within me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you S.C. I think I could do with trying the what you've said about giving myself some time to think it out before responding. I have tried that before on different occassions with different people, but I could do with trying that a bit more sometimes I think :) Thank you.

I don't think I'll be able to confront this person about today, which is maybe one of the reasons it is happening, though I think it is more to do with the other persons mood and them being frustrated with the way in which I do things or just generally in a mood, yet the second attempt today, I think, was a deliberate attempt to 'catch me out' or have a go at me, as I reacted defensively to the first critism, which turned into an arguement, where I agreed in the end to comply to something which I didn't want to do.

I know it's hard to get along with everyone all the time, unfortunately I don't think I and the other person will ever get on that well, we are probably too different. It's not that I don't care all the time, but when I feel someone is being nasty to me, I start to not care and feel angry. Though I am not perfect and also have not reacted in the best way to difficulties in the past (maybe), but we aren't in the past anymore, and I was hoping we could kind of work together better....it's sad, but it's not the end of the World I guess. Though right now, I don't want to work with this person at all.

I do have a way of dragging things out too long though in my head, since this was this morning and it's now gone 9pm at night.

Thank you though S.C. for your kind words, gives me something to think about, in how to approach things in the future :)