Hello everyone.
Well of course if its not one thing its another with this anxiety crap. Since Ive had all of my heart tests I haven't obsessed over the PAC's since everything came back "perfectly normal". Ive been obsessing over the heart thing for about 2 years now. Sometimes I still don't feel 100% about it,but I know its anxiety,and mind over matter since Ive had the "youre in the clear" with the heart disease thoughts. Recently, a lot actually, Ive been feeling like my throat is really tight and its really bothersome because it makes me panic. Being able not to breathe is a constant fear of mine while experiencing this pretty much newly "anxiety symptom"... Ive had a sore throat for a few days now,and Ive been waking up through the nights thinking its my esophagus burning, or my throat swelling, esophageal cancer/ulcers, etc etc. Just because I do take a lot of meds,as well as Prilosec for a few years now to help with the stomach issues.I told my doctor I pretty much take Excedrin everyday for these headaches/neck issues on top of my other meds and he wasn't concerned at all,he just made sure I was taking my Prilosec.If I don't take the Excedrin I literally feel like crap and in pain,but it also gives me bad heartburn sometimes and causes anxiety from the caffeine,its like it replaces symptom one for another.But with taking a few meds everyday for awhile now, that's what caused me to think its my esophagus burning and not my throat.I was already at the ENT last year,not sure if I should make another appt to check on my throat/esophagus or not.Last time I was there they stuck the hose with the camera in through my nose and checked my throat/esophagus and said my esophagus was a little red and irritated,so gave me Zantac.I never took that,my Dr ended up prescribing me Prilosec which basically does the same thing,which I do take everyday. My poor 9 year old daughter was an emotional wreck yesterday because my nephew has been living with my mother here with us In Pittsburgh for about a year and a half now and went back with his mother (my sister) to Atlanta yesterday and she cried all day because they were close..he was like her little brother.By night time when it was time for bed,she said her throat hurt and she was convinced she couldn't breathe.She kept taking deep breaths and her little heart was racing and she was so scared. I have her motrin and a breathing treatment (my 4 year old has asthma,and we thought she did as well when she was younger but doesn't,or grew out of it..) and she still felt she couldn't breathe or take a deep breath.This upset me so bad I started to tear up because these are anxiety symptoms and she takes after me,as my other daughter takes after my husband.They are total opposite.The last thing in the WORLD I would want for her is this anxiety to take over her life as it has done/is doing to mine.She has complained of other symptoms recently as well that made me really upset because they were "anxiety symptoms". I just really really really hope and pray she does not develop this like I have,because I am a terrible mess and even though Im working hard on it,it doesn't seem to be going anywhere anytime soon,which also upsets me.Ive been depressed all week and anxious about this tightness in my throat im just all together a wreck once again. I guess I better get ready for work )-: don't want to go,hate leaving my family but money doesn't grow on trees! (-;
hope everyone is having an anxiety free day and I wish everyone an anxiety free week as well!
Lacey