Advice/Tips?

I am on week 11 of Prozac. (currently on 20mg) I have been feeling better. The anxiety went away all together. But, some days I feel anxious for no reason. Not bad anxiety, just a little and it makes me feel depressed. Like... today I just felt anxious because I was bored. I was like worrying for no reason. Upset stomach thinking about being bored. Idk how to even explain it. I see my psychiatrist on Wednesday. I haven't seen him since starting the medicine because of having to reschedule. I was wondering, do you think I might need to go up to 30mg ? I mean FOR THE MOST PART.. I feel better. But, a couple of nights ago something small and stupid on facebook about my husband's ex girlfriend bothered me and I threw the biggest fit ever and it ended up getting violent. :( I am so ashamed of myself and I hate myself for being that way with him. (I have been physically violent to him in the past) BEFORE I was even on any medication. So it makes me wonder if this is even helping my depression part? I know its helping the anxiety.... so I'm scared to stop the medicine. I hate being depressed and anxious but I'd rather not be anxious at all if that makes any sense.  

It sounds like you're doing very well. We all are going to have "off" days, and even days of "depression." If those moments start to become 2 weeks or more straight, then I'd consider talking to my doctor. But we need to keep in mind, the meds we take cannot "cure" us, but -- they can help us handle our symptoms better.

And it sounds like you're doing fantastic! I'm very proud of you for hanging in there and working through these tough moments. Especially since it sounds like you're working through them and coming out on the other side,...all on your own!

Nicely done! :)




M.

Thank you so much for the replies. You're right, Merrida. I need to keep reminding myself that everyday will not be perfect. We all have our off days. I just can't seem to tell if this medicine is helping the depression or not. I'll talk to my doctor Wed and i'll update. Thanks again.

MM,

I would like to make an addendum to my previous post, if I may.

I am still happy for you that you have been afforded the experience of what it feels like to have your anxiety reduced so substantially. The fact you are consciously aware of the difference speaks volumes. You now know what it's like for your mind, spirit, and body to have a reprieve.

Kitt brought up some information that I was completely unaware of, and something that I think you may benefit from pursuing. I did not know about the correlation between Prozac and anger issues. As she pointed out, this may be a factor,-- not because of the Prozac, in and of itself,....but if you have anger issues and violence, even pre-existing ones, that the addition of Prozac may exacerbate those conditions/predispositions,....and that is not a healthy mix,...it's a volatile one.

While anger can be entwined with all sorts of emotions, including anxiety and depression, as Kitt wisely pointed out, violence in any form is never an answer, and never an acceptable behaviour or solution. Violence does not resolve any underlying condition or problem, it just opens up more gates for new issues to appear if it isn't addressed.

That being said, I'm reiterating that I am proud of you for acknowledging that these problems are lying within you, and that you are not in denial. That also being said, please do not be afraid of asking for help. There are so many countless resources, there's no need to fear being pigeon-holed into any one area in particular.

Sure, we all have good and bad days, and reminding yourself of that is a good place to start. I would strongly encourage you to discuss your anger and violence issues with your doctor. It's very important they know about them so that you can get the greatest benefit from medication and therapy.

Remember your health professionals are there to help you, and they cannot do their best if they're not being told the whole story. I've been embarrassed to share things with my doctors at times, but I've learned over time to trust.....they've seen more things that any of us could shake a stick at.

Rather than feel embarrassed or ashamed of your behaviour, go into your appointment with determination to share this information for the purpose of wanting to be thorough and maximizing your care. Again, please don't be afraid.....there are so many potential ways to handle this, and the fact you're cognizant of the violence is a big step to working on asking for help and learning alternative ways to handle those feelings. This is a very important issue,--for your own well-being, and those around you. Try changing your perspective from being afraid what others will think,....to you choosing to take charge of your life.

The sooner you address it, the sooner you will have the help to manage this....



M.