Posted 2/16/2014 11:49 PM (GMT 0)
So it has been a year of suffering terrible anxiety. I have never in my life suffered anxiety for so long. It all happened after my last intent of using SSRI. SRRI's only work for some time for me, and after some time either the pill stops working or I start feeling 100% worse. I have tried prozac, luvox, zoloft, lexapro and cymbalta! The withdrawals have been horrible. Last pill I tried was Prozac , and I felt horrible it was like being sick, and after I stopped I also felt bad. I felt better for some weeks after having no pill on my sister. Now I can sleep. I called my psychologist and he can only see me until april ! I went to my family doctor and he said i should become religiously involved or " believe in a high power" because there was nothing that he could give me. After saying that he gave me xanax. Right now I don't want to freak out, because I think mainly my problem is a really bad anxiety, and that anxiety makes me worry and have pure ocd. It changes day by day, right now i am currently scared of not ever feeling well, getting depressed and becoming suicidal, and being schizophrenic or having any mental issue that causes me to hurt people. It is a fear or losing control of my life and losing everything i love. I am wondering if maybe sometimes like Ativan or buspirone can help me? I truly believe if I felt less anxious i could control my ocd because I can do almost everything. I think i just want to adjust myself to not have any SSRI in my system. I took antidepressants for 3 years I feel my body is having like a shock right now.
I am upset because I feel like , upset about having anxiety I am upset for fearing stupid things !! !I take hydroxizine at night when i can't sleep. but that is pretty much all I take. I take all the anxiety without pills in the day and do everything.
I am willing to hear for any advice that anyone can give me ! Thank you !